journey

2008-09-02T17:42:00.005+08:00

September 2nd, 2008; holidays coming to an end and comes the final run...

Kind of overjoyed when I see an email in my inbox this morning. I had made it to my goal earlier this semester; get my ass back to the academical rolls of honor!!! I'll say this before some people from a prestigous school have any comments on this, this is the result of my hardwork and sacrifice; so don't you dare downgrade it.

I am very happy about my semester 1 performance; something which I've been working hard on. The following is my result =D

Manufacturing and logistics system ----> A

Financial and Banking applicatoin -----> A

I.T. Project Management -------------->A

Marketing ----------------------------->A

FYP 1---------------------------------->B+

Well, my only regret is my FYP1 which I failed to get an A. I very much know the reason behind it; so shall work forward to prevent this from happening in FYP 2.

hmm, school is going to start in 2 days time. Will be taking the following modules.

Manufacturing and logistic system 2

Finance and banking application 2

Human Resource Management

Management Information system.

Same objective, straight A's. Well MIS will be very important for me because that is what I want to major in after teritary education..

Alright, shall stop here...

2008-08-22T02:25:00.002+08:00

August 22nd, 2008... Having problem sleeping but the extra energy to read back some old entries of this blog.

What a collection of 3 years life experience from graduation from Junyuan to now about to graduate from Republic polytechnic. Quite alot of things had happend in my dramatic life anyway. So right here infront of a SCHOOL laptop, (have to really remind myself of this because I am starting to treat this laptop as mine) I came across some issues which was in the past.

An abstract from one of my entry in 2006, "someone also passed me up this question to be attached again.. well, sorry and sad to say, i got this feeling i might be bachelor for another 2 years?". Haaz that feeling was eventually right, I am already single for about 2 years and soon 3 years by this december. Ever since the day I had decided to walk out of the romantic industry, whatever that fills my mind had no longer be girls or relationship but my career, my future and my fianancial status. Well, thanks brothers from N~Zire to have always try to spark the old feeling back in me, but I guess it's near impossible. Some might say it's because of once bitten twice shy, some might say that I am beyond hope but I'll say the time is not right yet.

Speaking of this, I had a dream last night about this girl who I had strike a deal with. Very interesting because I heard something and soon I find myself searching high and low for her. Very vividly in my mind is the name of that girl who starts with a "Min" or something.. Haha, this is not the first time, just another searching scenario in my dream. But this is quite real(crap which dream don't seems real.

Another abstract from one of my entry in 2006, the decision to get out of SA "Will be also putting my heart into business climate, hope that my priority is right and this IG will one day regain its glory." Is it right? Business Climate is still in it's same shape after 2 years I made that statement. The same feeling I had in SA is in this IG as well now, it look as if it's dying internally but yet still doing well out there. The struggle over incompetent advisors are over and we have 3 very active advisors which gave hope to this I.G. GOD BLESS THEM~

About future, about academical results... No problem, I am it's getting nearer and nearer each day. WHICH is something I am so proud and feeling the sense of fulfillment in me. I have another 6 months more to prove my worth, and I'll just do it to the max.

OK, enough of such emo moments. Time to sleep for another sweet dream.

Thought of the day: You'll see, how's life when the past is all on the back of your mind.

2008-08-20T01:28:00.002+08:00

August 20th, 2008. About 7 days into the vacation and right here I am not using my own laptop but my school laptop. This is the first time in my RP times, I feel that the performance of my school laptop and surplus my own laptop.

Well... Does machine have feelings for his owners? Whenever the thoughts of changing computer come, my laptop will visit the service center. Haha. Crap, I very well know the reason why; it could be the cause of buying a replacement adaptor from a "not so trustworthy" vendor. LESSON LEARNED.

So, it's second week of vacation and also a start of a race. Just as I had expected, the school will never let us rest well for the vacation. Got our allocation of FYP2 last friday and was expected to start our project on Monday. Well, I am ok with this anyway because the longer I rest the less productive I am when the school starts.

We will be building Sales Force Management System this time, not our choice but considered a very challenging task. But it will benefit us alot for those who wants to major in Information System such as myself. Our contenders, they are pretty strong; one of them is my friend Lester who have stress that drives his product and one of them was my classmate; rumor spreads that he is a very good programmer. Back home, I have confidence because I have a reasonable talented team. Most importantly, our advisor is Mr Juan Sng, my ITPM facilitator; he is one of my favourite facilitator in the school. Something tells me he might be quite expecting my ablity in project management since he is the one who taught me ITPM. But I believe I am up to the challenge.

Done my planning on the FYP already, will need to consult my teammates tomorrow and get them to agree with the plan. It's the last FYP , my very last time to prove myself so that a very nice description about me will be printed on the transcript.

The last semester, I would say will be the busiest semester in my RP days, beside FYP; MELT camp is on the way, will be desiging website for BC and will be actively looking for a job after graduation. The door to the outside world, draws nearer each day.

That's all for the day, got to go rest for the meeting later... Time to push forward~

Thought of the day:
We all have our own boxes, and this boxes we carry contains our self image. And they will protect themselves by preventing us from being nice to others.

2008-08-08T00:31:00.002+08:00

8th April 2008, 080808 what an auspicious number... Too bad I am not even the age of mariage else I will sure get married on this date =D. Anyway just a few minutes into this auspicious day.

Holiday is coming real soon, "SO FINALLY". With that low running adrenaline run, it's really tough to keep the thoughts of skipping school alway everyday. But hey! I had not skipped any lessons after FYP. My academical goals are within my reach seriously as I am pretty confident about my last few Understanding tests. But those results are still not out and there is already no more turning back, so the least I would do now is PRAY!! PLEASE no more moderation surprise for me~~

Have been really busy with some other projects such as MELT and BC website. MELT, OH OH OH GOD, it's so revived... But there are still some more unhappiness in me that this camp is being so downgraded on my hands, hmmm what to do? I have to force myself to understand the constraints in this school and also in this IG. BC website, another one step I am taking to put something interesting into my portfolio~...

Hmm.. That's all for today. I am about to review my strategy for my FYP this holidays.. So as to do better the next time...

Thought of the day:Because I hate the idea of giving up.

2008-07-26T00:51:00.005+08:00

July 26th, 2008.. Finally I've got back my laptop.

Pretty speechless today, just some photos to share about the fishing trip last week.

My first fish

My second fish

It's so hot that our baits are literally COOKED~

2008-07-19T00:47:00.003+08:00

19th July 2008, it's the first few minutes of a beautiful saturday. For this week, I celebrate the relief from an edgeline run.

Yeap, nothing feels more relaxing than knowing the fact that FYP 1 is officially over. Experiences gained which will help me in the next FYP and definately in my future endeavours in the industry. We had our evaluation that wednesday, honestly I had mixed feelings about it. For a moment I thought we did really bad for evaluation, but on the other side; I felt that we had done quite well actually. So anyone who will ask me "hey how's your presentation?", I would reply "er, standing between heaven and hell". It's hard to explain the experiences we had for this project and particularly the presentation in words, so I shall spare the details. Perhaps just some photos I took with my team, a team which worth my memory.

FYP team 2008040
Left to right: Kee Yong(GUI designer, Tester),
Shimah(The secretary, Business Analyst),
Shao Cheng(PM ,System Analyst),
Guo Long(Programmer , Database Designer)

Very much, the above allocation of job is just places which I think my teammates done better. In fact everyone went through all the different jobs at different phrase of the project. When in designing, everyone was very much a SA, when it comes to development; everyone become a programmer. But at different phrase, I get to see the strength of my teammates.

Just another picture~ Communication is our key to success

Sometimes when we face obstacles in coding, we look for the source for idea and stress
Our project partner(for information and skills) Mr Lester Stress=X

Haha, Lester was one of the few really hardworking people I had seen or encounter in RP. Though he might be the speculator of the stress sensation but I do respect his learning attitude and his talent in programming.

Now FYP is over and I had seriously learn alot. The experiences and knowledge gain will definately help me in the future. As for now, I understood my team's strength better and I am confident that my next FYP will be a greater experience. hmmm~ now I'll take a retreat, review my strategy in the project and improve it..

2008-06-21T01:52:00.003+08:00

June 21st, 2008 entry; but its about June 20th, 2008. It had been a really lethargic week, FYP and studies... Republican's Year 3 isn't easy as what others thought it is. Yet something came which almost demoralized me today...

FYP... Raining days are over and things are back on track looking pink and in shape. It's really good plan + good execution and control. Right now we are at testing phrase where some other teams are still at their development. The power of design, it really speeds up our pace. In anyway, I'll not celebrate too fast until I left the evalulation room.

I guess I had become more and more unpopular among my circle lately and wonder if its because my mouth had become more lethal and consider no feelings or isit because I am already being given up by this world? I notice I've been really harsh in my words and jokes nowadays and GOSH, I'm really trying hard to curb these. But I guess I just found the source of such evil progress in me. Being slammed because where I'm from.

Just got slammed AGAIN today. "Why you in RP, SO LAN(lousy in chinese)", "Learning to be a difference to have difficulty finding job in the future?" Thanks for the comment and I shall assume you are abit too quick in your words that you didn't know you stepped on my tail. I'm really sorry that I'm so anal about being commented that way and taking it so seriously but it meant a poke to you but a piercing to me. I was so glad that I hold the trigger and prevented myself from firing the 50 calibre sniper rifle from my mouth when that "poke"came to me. Just not right to do so, killing one will anger the rest; the spartans only hold off the persians but was defeated after all. And I can't be defeated now.

I might be really lousy and useless in the past considering my academical results. But I've really really regretted to flunk my O'lvls due to my wasted time on "RELATIONSHIP", CRAP CYCLING, CRAP GAMES and so on instead of time on books. But here I am finally getting something and there you are, trying to convinced me that I'm DONE with my life because I am from RP.

Though its the school they slam but its as much as slamming me because I'm from there. Why is it exactly so piercing to me? Perhaps no one I've known had really pull,cut, stretch and push themselves for an EXCELLENT result but has no one close enough to share the happiness with? But that's ok, but how about being slammed that "But you from RP lea" after sharing the happiness. Something even more sad to hear about, once I introduced myself as a RP student to someone out of RP, the very next few scenes you would see is that person stopped talking to me there after but before everything he was joking and crapping with me.

What's so bad about RP? SERIOUSLY? Have anyone who slammed me asked themselves SERIOUSLY that. Let me tell you what are the common replies which you guys refuse to tell me or never phrase it properly because you saw the change on my face.
1. Because its new ar, not prestige enough ar..
(CRAP~ Temasek was once like this also)
2. Because its different in learning ar, no teacher really teaching so not good not good.
(Ya, have you been really there to study to comment whether its good not? Somemore, ask them why aren't they learning? ITS BECAUSE THEY CHOOSE NOT TO LEARN! )
3. I don't know lea, I heard one.
(Good, the person you heard from, is he/she from RP? if he/she what is his reasons? it got to be one of the 2 reasons above RIGHT!?)
4. Statistics shows that RP has very low employment rate for its graduates
(Tell me where you get that statistics from? www.you.com? If it's really so, you know why? Because the whole society CONVINCED that the difference is stupid. LABELLED RP as inefficient and a land for failers. SO WHO DESTROYED OUR FUTURE?)
5. No university recognize RP as a Polytechnic
(Tell me who you heard it from? someone non-republican who is convinced by the slamming? OR just some oldies who see differences as something bad?)

So is prestige really really so important to you? Because you can show off fame and achievements that are not yours to make you sound nicer? Then tell me what is considered a good school? Because you can get in that school with a paper with some 5 'A's on it?

I was once very redudant to come to RP, but I was convinced by someone not from RP to come. Mrs Quek from BB; she asked me when I complained... " why do you think RP is bad? just because its new?". At that moment I really had no idea why I thought it was bad and I felt it was unfair to judge something this way just because its new and not prestigous. Thus somehow, I gave up about appealing for TP and joined RP. And I am thankful that I made that decision.

But I wonder why god gave me this path to walk on? Couldn't I get to just walk a smoother and direct life.Perhaps he wants me to understand what is rise and fall. And how to understand that what you think is good might not be necessary to others. And how to cherish your own sucesses because not all will share that happiness with you. And lastly have a choice of my own destiny. 3 years in a school which is commonly a target board for craps, unfactual statistics and comments had really changed me alot. If god want to train my tolerance, had he had enough? I believed I had reach the maximum level of tolerance, so max that I wonder~ How much longer can I stay calm and friendly to those who came to destroy me or what I've came to love?

Guess, I'll just stay firm on what I think is right for me. FORGET WHATEVER those from pretigous schools had said....

2008-06-14T02:03:00.003+08:00

June 13th, 2008. It's a bad friday! There is a chinese saying which says that the unawared are not affected. Pretty true, I had not even thought that its a bad friday today and fortunately and glad enough that nothing bad really happen.(Except some discomfort when i wake up, engine starting problem.)

Haaz, guess I had really been down and wondering alot for the past 2 weeks in my holidays. See, I'm just never contented with myself, always finding fault in me to change. And I wonder if I can take that as a self awareness test or what they call, NO LIFE BASTARD...

FYP and we are practically left with 15 man-days to complete(assuming Sat and SUn we slack); the most recent and devestating delay just took place which makes this a unfortunate chance to crash the timeline again. Suppose to finish cart module and make loan module by wednesday but.... Now we must start our testing this monday, prepare the test cases by wednesday and finish Unit Testing and debugging by the following Tuesday(latest) Then we'll proceed on to system integration testing and finish every thing by the following Monday. After which is a marathon to complete user guide, presentation materials and our final report( its quite an ambitious thingy to do now) The final report is not really easy, guess I'll have my teammates to start writing their final report to save time.

Just came back from N~Zire meeting and some of us shared with us their MP(major project) experiences which is also the same concept as our FYP. I heard them playing games during lab moments and so on, and their MP seems to be timeless and easily done. Whereas in RP, I see everyone so serious and racing against time to get their project done. Those who are more up to hands will be enjoying completing things as they plan while those who are stucked will show some signs of stress and begin searching high and low everyday for help. Guess RP had reached its mission to implement PBL, it had really trained all of us to be independent and professional in the things we are entitled to do. (OR isit because this is the big thing which determine your graduation?)

As for me, my FYP teammates might had started find me demanding and expecting too much from them in this project. Haaz, thats my bad I always have high expectations for myself and those around me; perhaps thats why I'm not as popular. But after so many failures, I really hate it and want to do the best in things that matters me. Since year 1, I am really determined to make my transcript the most beautiful thing.

Now I understand the concept of "selling yourself". The diploma cert is like a product you offer and your achievements and undertakings in school are like promotions . Bosses looking for the best to take the job are like consumers looking for the best promotion. Am I right?

Haaz, all these are easiler said than done but I believe I'm doing well. Nevertheless there are more about myself for me to explore and improve on.

2008-06-07T01:21:00.002+08:00

June 6th, 2008... Somehow I am very restless today. Holiday just started and I wake up everyday with prayers that everything is going to be fine.

FYP, we just entered and almost finished the second phrase of developing. Mainly the administrator and user functions. Pretty much to do within 2 weeks. I am done with all the module except one, which is to edit and update loan details. It went on pretty smoothly for me but it had been hell to my teammates somehow. Now everyday I'll be so shocked by my teammates MSN nick which goes like "DAMN FYP" or "FUCK FYP" which makes me wonder why am I so relaxing when doing codes. Is it because I am doing something simple? Or am I just being good at it? During the whole phrase of developing my own modules, I had found alot of interesting facts and performed stunts on codes which I had obviously not tried during any of the WAD lessons. I know, my teammates are all trying hard to finish their modules and find new ways to complete it. And lets hope they continue doing so because, "GUYS, its worthwhile... "

MELT camp, something which I am seriously brainstorming for ideas to revive it. Just recently a school started to respone to our proposal, NEGATIVELY. Just as I expected, price is not right for them(AND YET I KEPT QUIET DURING THE MEETING, HOW DICK CAN YOU BE MARK!?). Now I had been asked to do a cost evaluation again, AND YES I will do it.Somehow I feel that I had lost the confidence and trust from my teammates and I am also aware of the other negative things that is happening which cause all these screw ups. I had ideas to overcome this, but it means doing the extreme which the return is a variable and BUT it might steer the fate of this project. So should I or should I not?

Haaz, Shawn just called me a workaholic.Its' a negative notation according to wikipedia but I am not denying this fact. Yes I am a workaholic at times. It's fear and the set backs I had which lead and make me this way. Alot of people feels that fears are for cowards, but Scott Burken in his book the art of project management mentioned that "The braves are the ones who feel fear but took action to it" which I personally buy his thoughts(yes, I think I'm brave enough after all the shits i've been through). Maybe because of all the brush through I had, it makes me no longer forget in arrogance that the things around me are not as what I perceive. And you know, things had changed; no longer as easy as it used to be.

Thought of the day:I have not and never will give up on people along the side of me, and lets hope they will not give up on me and things we are fighting for.

2008-05-21T23:47:00.004+08:00

May 21st,2008 what a long time since the last entry! Well have been trying to write a diary then to type in a blog. Its just a short one month, but lots had happened.

School? I have been pushing all the way since the start of the semester for my semester target. So its like studying studying studying, doing FYP doing FYP everyday. And I just won't give up doing all these till I graduate. My results have been so far so good and I really hope I'll keep it that way through out this AY.

My FYP, finally we finished our desiging phrase, though its not really perfect in my eyes but at least we have some things there to refer us back. Right now, we are starting to develop the codes for the application, some of us favourite and desires since the start of this project. But I have to really emphasize the importance of design to my team; just to prevent the actual implementation to differ from what we propose in the designs. Its a very dilema thing here, as I try to strive 100% in the project and not compromise my teammates feeling. Just a penny of a thought, today I heard a story of a person who is so hardworking and helped his teammates so much that they got an 'A' and he got a 'B'; GOD MAN where is justice!? I had better watch my way as well.

Another project for me to revive, MELT. With the new advisors, who are extremely helpful; of all a sudden I saw hope for this project. Speaking of projects, I think I'll start to run entries in a black book to remember all the mistakes I made in projects. This way I'll improve.

Just last friday, I lost someone who is my next to kin. To be exact, he is my motherside grandfather. Right now, I am missing his presences. The scene of him cleaning the altar of gods and watering the plants will no longer be there when I visit my uncle house. Just another good man left the world; my grandfather is a well respected man, he is cool and just never lose his temper before. I didn't shed any tears during the wake nor the funeral but through out the 5 days, thoughts had been running through my mind like a busy river. My grandfather's death somehow, just make me feel that life is really precious as everyone has their limited times. Its important to live life as if you will die tomorrow, so that one day when you really leave at old age; there will be no regrets left on this world. His death also made me realised how important it is to be fillal to your parents though it is easier said than done. To me fillal is not about saying it out and celebrating every father & mother's day, its about the unexplanable care and love you gave to them. These thoughts just kept running through my mind whenever I am at the wake. Everything happened so suddenly that I can literally feel the slowing down of the hectic world I lived in, for a moment of thoughts...

Anyway, I'm 19!! My birthday just passed on monday. Can't really celebrate due to the death of my grandfather. But its perfectly fine because, I have many birthdays left in my life but sending my grandfather off to the afterlife will only happen once and only once. Ferlyn said that birthday wishes are wishes which usually come true, I hope I am not too late to make my 2 wishes
1. Complete my teritiary education with flying colors, flying A, flying merits.
2. Have many happy moments with my cliques and family.
Now the 3rd wish is normally a secret and can't really say it out; but honestly I am always blanked on the last wish.

Tomorrow, the hectic world continues and everything will resume its fast and furious speed.

thought of the day: I just want the best in my life, and I'll never rest trying to get it~

2008-04-12T01:10:00.004+08:00

12th April 2008, I am late again for an entry about yesterday. It was a bad friday or should i say I screwed it?

Shao Hui was right, there's no point acting happy when you are not. But I have no choice because I know how much I can spoil a mood when I am really unhappy. I can say the most vicious the most hurting the most killing words in this world, but I just can't say words that are sweet and touch people. I lose my cool today; its really disastrous; its a failure to curb my unhappiness. Maybe its after all right to put all blame on myself and give in; little bro was right I am nothing just a loser. Anyway its my fault today, to make fun of a person who is already in pain. I owe a sorry to that brother i always call. But I just hate being rejected so violently even when I show no harm and I really do. Oh my fuck, Mark; Have fun do over you so much and make you forget about feelings of others?

I'm trying hard to stop making fun of people, its so uncool. No one enjoys it either and I can't find any other jokes.. Its really time to shut my mouth up for good.

Friends, we all stand on the same world. Maybe it's just me, I am out of the world. I need a break, to come back to this world? Or should I just continue listening to stories about the other world?

Anyway, I will still and still and still put a smile to disguise every unhappiness in me. Its only wise to do so.

2008-04-07T22:12:00.003+08:00

April 7th, 2008 back to school and pulling myself back on a caltapult.

School is kind of ... today, took a cab to school and an frustrating experience at I.T. Helpdesk.

I guess the double intake of year 1s also means double the time to get to school every morning. The scenario of students + workers + NS men getting up 168 had worsen. Its the same time I set off for school as I did in the previous semester and always I will avoid this human jam; but this time round the human jam is really big. Thus, thats my morning~ Missed 2 buses. Along with some other year 3s like me, who gave themselves a silly smile " What the fuck, again??". Its first day of school and with the new policy, no one wants to get late so I was pretty left with no choice but to take a cab to school. Fortunately enough, I found 3 other year 3 students whom I know to share the ride.

Lifts broke down and a power trip~ thats what happen to my block today early in the morning. Guess the lifts and bulbs had too little excercise over the long holiday. Next on the school blues, I can't log in to my own computer using my own password. So much on the first day of school, lunch time is being sacrificed in I.T. helpdesk. Perhaps I should had consider working for my school I.T. helpdesk since I can even be asked for advices from the staffs. To solve my own problem, I gave a suggestion for the techs to help me out to solve( that was like after 1 hour of frustrating waiting, seeing them doing the same old thing over and over again without solving anything). Haiz, cool my circuits~ its a business bloom today over at I.T. helpdesk, guess they are all too busy.

Started on FYP today, met my team to get some planning on the way. Darn, everyone forgotten a very important documentation which our lovely indian advisor would like to see. THE REQUIREMENTS AND SCOPES.. But at least we were firm on the use case diagram for now. This wednesday is out as we can't have a full team to meet our advisor, so I suggested that we start on the initials and console the advisor next week. At least we won't waste this one week. Anyway, I am right I can trust this team of friends to do their work. Common goal- Graduation~

Some old friend came sighing this morning "haiz, its 8 more weeks to go~" Tomorrow, it is school again. Financial and Banking Applications, when it comes to money I'll take a little longer to digest. Yi Qi was saying, we should had chosen subjects/modules we think we can score high in. while I prefer to be good at something which give me good future. Interest and capability can be nurture so I should not study for exams only, but study for my future.

2008-04-06T00:18:00.003+08:00

April 6th, 2008; again I am 20 minutes late to talk about yesterday. Had a very sporty week, cramps and aches are invading me...

Had visited the gym twice this week, once on monday and today. Most likely this is going to continue as I have a goal for myself and of course IPPT is around the corner. Right now as I type, I can even hardly feel my limbs. Its anyway good for me as I can prepare myself before going back to judo training, which is somewhere monstrous. Haiz, still arguing with myself for the reason to turn up for judo training.

School is like practically tomorrow and there is more reasons to sleep early and wake up early to catch a good bus to school. My school had just decided another scheme which leaves us no chance to be late or absent.

This was the announcement pop up when I sign in leo today.
It used to be deduction of 0.5 grade after 3 accumulated late arrival, but now its every single lesson. And there used to be a 15 minutes grace, thanks to some who misused it (inclusive of me during semester 2) now we have no more grace. So for RP senior years students, its 8.30a.m every day SHARP. Have to wake up early avoid the squeezing in bus~

And they also decided to be more stringent in their policy, the screen shot below is something in our student study portal. Its a tracking system of how many lessons have you been absent, present, late, partially present(which means you decided to declare end of lesson yourself) or not in the first meeting. What a way to remind us~
Unlike the previous years where the school decide what I take for core general and core discipline. This time round, I decide what I am taking for my core specialization and electives. So base on my interest and future, I made my choice. I even have plans on the modules I am going to take on the second semester.

It seems like I have lots to achieve and fulfill this year.haaz, I am a freak and geek who loves to be busy.

Ok, the tireness is killing me~

2008-03-29T23:22:00.002+08:00

29th March 2008, just another day closer towards my final year. Getting alittle excitement about that, FINAL YEAR!!!

Anyway, I got the class allocation through some 'illegal' means. But it's all thanks to a pro hacker in our school who gain access to the school server. I mean I am not really sure whether this time round he hacked the server or the school just gave him some memo of understanding. Ok, back to topic. Just as I had expected, I have to run about block W6 through out the week.

Day 1:Manufacturing and Logistics system(W66L)
Some familiar faces like Kenneth. Ok make it a face.

Day 2: Financial and Banking Applications (W67F)
Alot of familar faces here all are my previous classmates. HAHA
Wei Tieng, Yew Wien, Shimah and Shee Ying

Day 3:Marketing(W66D)
I'm back to my previous class, W66D...
No one in this class knows me nor do I know them either. Total new faces... MORE FRIENDS!!

Day 4: IT project management(W66B)
Madi and Fion are the familiar faces.

Anyway, its really happy to know that I got all my choices for this semester. Same old goals I have every semester, nothing less than A!! haha.. Must be back to the roll of honors~

SJAB was one of my shock yesterday. Things had changed, from good to bad to WORSE~~ Politics among stubborn NCOs, ill discipline among cadets. I decided to actually listen to the stories that the NCOs have,honestly its all about politics. Jealousy and smart alecs, the core of the problem. I can't really return to help due to my tight schedule, so I'll just hope that SJAB will still be in one piece in the near future, should I decided to make a come back.

ok, got to go now...

2008-03-28T05:01:00.002+08:00

March 28th, 2008 the sun is barely up and I'm already "up-ed". Awaken from a dream which I personally had trouble classifying, a nightmare or a comedy? Ordered 4 "roti prata", 2 eggs and 2 plain; but got roti john instead. Haaz, I woke up because of this and started to wonder what time was it. holyshit, its only 5 plus!!

The first song that rings in my ear when I woke up was this song, "Gui Ji" so thought I will search for this song in my classic song store. Found it and is happily listen to it now.

Anyway, the 3 "big" bros in N~Zire had a chatting come beer session yesterday night. It used to be 4 though, haiz... To sum up everyting, yesterday chatting session was something really remarkable; never expected everyone had so much to chat about =D We have times that we really need to cherish and remember, if not there will be nothing worth to keep the friendship.

MELT camp, for the first in my lifetime I led with agony. I can't really portray my feelings here in words. Nothing seems to be smooth. My weaknesses seems to be pouring everywhere on everyone in BC due to this camp. Its somewhere I can't really act, can't really say, can't really convince and I just wonder if its about a deteriorating me or just some problems and facts that I cowardly dare not face.

Michael shared with me what really was in his mind, I really hope thats what's he fired from his heart than his extra rounds. Its pretty true, I am not strong enough; his version was that I have no power to control my teammates in the team and they are all on my head. The downsides of being democractic was my version of why I am weak. Maybe I really care too much on how others feel when their ideas are rejected in this camp; I should had stayed firm on what I thought was right. Melt, something that had turned into nothing of my ideals and its really my fault to miss the importance of team development. Haaz, I was really fierce back then in SJAB; perhaps I should be so in BC?

"Reminising about the past", something that grown stronger in me ever since the start of this year. Looks like I am really stopping down to look around myself, haaz its seems to be an annual routine anyway. Had I really lived better in the past? With status, respect and just little bit of fame. There are really some stuffs I wished I could be more matured back then to deal with the issue,and those are people and places in my life I once valued but losed today.Haaz, I always thought that I had forgotten my past for a new life; but I'm wrong, I haven't forgot those stuffs; I had just simply put them aside. Reconstructing the "used to be seems" rather impossible now, all are beyond my reach and of course some requires serious consideration. Those high peaks in my life, really worth my time to reminising and take a good look at what I am today. Comparing myself today with what I used to be is really a "sour" thing to do.

Love, something which I had left for quite a time but yet have not much urge to pick it up again.
There is something I really hid in me and something which I am very surprised I have the hearts to put it aside. Who's the real one, had I just found and lose one? Someone who just never walk out of my mind, god damn it=/ Love is about doing some stupid and irrational things, do I really want to do those stuffs again??? I am nothing good enough for these things though thusMy conscience is clear, achievements and career before anything.

Haaz, feeling really "shiok" now as I poured out those that clot in my mind for this moment. Guess its back to sleep and get ready for the swimming later.

Thought of the day: Remember the good times.

2008-03-26T03:57:00.004+08:00

March 26th, 2008; I just got home from another N~Zire meeting + "Man's" talk with Honsonn. Damn it~ And I just found a undesirable truth; my holiday is ending in 1 week time, when I'm enjoying my holiday the most.. ARGH~~~~~~~

Its about K-box today, after the long time promise to Derrick that, WE WILL GO one day. It took long enough before I can adjust myself back to what I'm use to be in K-box. I almost forgotten how to actually sing a particular song, since they are Chinese Songs. To make it worse, I woke up with a throat full of flams(I wonder if you spell it that way?). Only manage to sing some songs which that is up to the "use to be" standard. Songs like dao dai? Soledad? and some songs which the four heavenly kings in N~Zire used to sing. Haha, even now I can't help to sing the chinese sad songs the rock style =D Too much of Simple plan and Click five.

Everyone went different ways after a dinner at Pastamania. Shawn and Si Yang went to see their dick=X I mean their friend Dickson.Anita and Derrick went home. Nigel left us early for his work(which is my work but I decided to once again off). Thus left with Honsonn and I for a man session. We invited a "long time no see" member to join us for a chat, Sueh Li. Man, I really wish she will be back to crap with us. Anyway she didn't leave us just that she's too busy to meet us. So ya, its a chit-chat session with thousands of topics.

Talked about our appearance and Honsonn and I personally thinks that we are abit "ah-peh" haha, really sad we are just a little more rational and matured mentality only. Its also because of our attire, Honsonn dress "retro-ly" while I dress way too simple. Its always Jeans and a Tee. What to do, simplicity is my trademark. =D My extreme was to wear sport wears, someone actually says I am suitable for sportswear more than fashionwear. I look sporty and have a sport build, can't really imagine myself in skinny and some shirt with Funky, punky creature/words like "HEY FUCK ME IN THE ASS" that kind. Ya, so I think I look better with Addidas or Nike or Puma. Love to wear bermudas, a tank, slippers ,my addidas jacket over and finally a shade =D
Talking about style, I wanted to try something really daring to me. Really want to have a tattoo, but it will be a stupid idea now as I am admitting into the Army in no time. Tattoo means alot of paper administration to settle, so I'll wait for ORD... (long to go) What I wanted to try was a tribal symbol on my upper arm above the tricep and biceps. But of course I need to train for some muscles for that, it will look suck on a bone. And of course there is much to consider about, will anyone get scared by that?? I look scary enough already=D

haaz, its almost 5 in the morning and I doubt I can wake up for Judo again. haha.. Initially it was laziness and now its because there is so much social activities=D

Damn lots to do and achieve, life had suddenly feel so short and fast. I have a list of goals to complete for year 2008 and I really got to start fulfilling some~~ hmm time for some sleep.

thought of the day: I will only cherish the wonderful memories of the past and never walk the same dark road ever again.

2008-03-22T03:07:00.003+08:00

March 22nd, 2008 just got back from N~Zire meeting. Had a rather fun basketball match, honestly this time round, I have a different feeling playing this ball game. Used to be very frustrated playing this game, because I can't dribble, shoot, pass, tackle well. But now, its not really the case as I can dribble and shoot better now thus the game is much more enjoyable now. =D

FYP allocation is out, my team are allocated to do a inventory system for our school(SIT). So basically just a online web base inventory system where user can check status of item and the administrator and issue and check the item. Considerably an easy task. So FYP means busy, I will soon be fill with planning, codings, designing and meetings. I really want to clinch an 'A' for this module like any other module I took. FYP 'A' here I come!!

Anyway, my sales had been really atrocious since February =D 5 sales 5 sales, haha I am wondering how to survive the balance in my bank. SO IT CAN'T GO ON THIS WAY~~!!! Got to do something, will be working tomorrow and clinch dealsSSS.

Thought of the day: Success is the mixture of everything I have.

2008-03-20T00:32:00.002+08:00

20th March 2008, less than an hour late to talk about what happen on 19th March 2008. Sorry to have to repeat this kind of introduction sentence in almost all entries. What to do? The perfect feeling for blogging only comes in the night.

Its Honsonn's birthday today(19th March 2008), simple and nice. Had our dinner over at Seoul Garden and damn I had phobia on chili already, after it inflicted a terrible throat infection after the BBQ. But anyway its quite fun down there, eating and crapping. After that was movie time, watched the Semi Prom, quite funny though; initially I thought I had just wasted another 8 dollars on the movie tickets. hmmmmm, not really those tickets are complimentary. THANKS SHAWN~ haha.. go for more laser competition.

School is going to start soon, approximately another 2 to 3 weeks more. Pretty reluctant... I am excited about the fact that its final year already and it means time to put in double effort and 'chiong' all the way towards the finishing line to be a champion. Reluctant because my holiday fun just got to its peak~!

I am starting to think am I abit getting to become a feeling-less jerk? Use to sweet talk people and so on, but nowadays I am shooting off without being considerate~ hmm....

2008-03-15T21:25:00.002+08:00

March 15th, 2008... Mark is down with the same problem again. Throat infection, which also means if the infection don't subside, my fever will not go down. Gees, wonder which god had I offended to meet with such a misfortune. It has been more than 10 years since my last throat infection. Fortunately this time round its not as 'jialat' as the previous case, about 2 months ago.

Haaz, lets forget about that I will make a speedy recovery before Honsonn's birthday this coming wednesday.

I am about 2-3 days late to talk about the Aranda Chalet N~Zire had as a replacement/compensation of the missing chalet last year December. Suppose to head back to SAF but Nigel has been lucky enough to get a 50% discount from Aranda. Honestly, I prefer Aranda now(haha), its so 'mansionate'. Its big, classical and comfortable(except the chairs I slept on). But sadly, it had been raining for the whole 3 days 2 nights in the chalet which really affect our activities. There is too much to share about this chalet, the pillowfight, trying the hottest sotong in the world, up and down beer game and so on. All I had to say is, this chalet was fun~

Everyone is down after the chalet, so I guess there is no N~Zire meeting yesterday. The very next outing is Honsonn birthday~ hmmm

2008-03-08T01:58:00.004+08:00

March 8th, 2008. It's another friday. I mean Saturaday, just late for 2 hours. Don't have to say, you know what I am doing on this friday. Or should I say every friday? haaz, nothing much just usual routines.

Darn! I made a mistake again, a very foolish; stupid mistake. Just recently I had clinched a deal and I just subconciously forgot to take the customer contact number. Its already the second time,purely the result of stoning during work. But its because of this stupid mistake, I tasted the harsh reality of working life. It is almost near zero possiblities that someone will help you when you make mistakes, its all on our own. Just received some lecture from the Admin Manager of the company for this stupid mistake, of course I won't retaliate because its after all my fault. But I offered the possiblity that I can get the number from the customer which I think it's responsible enough for me to offer that but all I got was a very sarcastic remark ." Save the trouble la, just put down your number, anything wrong call you lo". Thanks huh! You, goh-liee goat. mEh-h-h~ (so random)

But afterall, the customer haven't call; guess that goat is already off to submit the Service agreements. Just pray hard the customer don't owe money or do anything to starhub~

Listening to some chinese songs now, its been a long time since I listen to these chinese songs. Its a change that I took 2 years ago? Year 1 semester 2, that was when. No more chinese songs, but soft English rocks or any variations of English songs. Jay Chou, Tank, Ah Du, LJJ are all history to me. Click Five, Boys like girls, Simple Plans are the present melodies and rhythms for my ears. Its a sudden taste change 2 years ago but I don't know why? But I know I am dying for a change back in my past and I know I had succeed because I had become someone who no one who known me 3 years ago will recognise me as Seah Shao Cheng Mark today. haaz, I really miss the road behind me and it makes me wonder; have I changed from good to bad? I had departed from where I am without landing on another place which it feels like flying alone among the clouds; performing stunts without any audience seeing. Or just crashed?

All that is left from my past is N~Zire, all of the rest had been thrown away and all that I have now is a new designed key with no lock to fit, it can't fit the past and it can't fit the present. But I'll stick to my theory, everlasting friendship is about putting the effort to maintain. So its about me to remember the common past and ignore the different present. Though my stories will never be understandable anymore but its ok, I'll listen and understand the stories being told.

haaz, looks like its always friday that I am specially emo. But its always short coming and smile will be back tomorrow, as always and hope it does. Thats all I have to share about my thoughts today.

Melodies from chinese songs died in my ear, its time to go back to English soft rock!~

Thought of the day: Future lies unknown to everyone, just where and who will I be?

2008-03-01T02:03:00.004+08:00

March 1st, 2008... I am just late to talk about the day which happens only once every four years, thats the 29th February. Thats what they call the leap years when Earth will have an extra one day in the year. Something to do with Moon gravitational influences on Earth, but not really sure what is it about~ 29th February falls right on friday this year and just had the usual N-Zire meeting. Haaz, looks like those words are very common in my blog "usual N-Zire meeting". Lets put it this way, without them I think I will be back to my loner days~

Thought of the day: Don't understand why I will be so full of thoughts at the end of the week~

2008-02-23T06:06:00.003+08:00

February 23, 2008... March on the way, times flies. Anyway, I am just home from N~Zire Soccer and some spooky expereince(damn, its not a nice story to share) Kind of thoughtful today, but I am feeling hard to put them into words today~

Its 3 weeks into holiday for goodness sake. The result for the semester is out anyway, damn just as I predicted~ No longer in the role of honors and there is nothing more saddening than that for now~ But I know its my fault in this slack in result, if I only I had put in more effort to this than the sales work. Thats it, I have to really gear myself up and drive for what I want from my poly. There is another 2 more news, awaiting to trigger my emotions. 1. FYP project allocations 2. My modules selection results.

Sales into the last phrase and I am still stucked with 5 sales~nothing much to comment from here,I am geting lazy nowadays~

Thought of the day: As always, I am always not sastified with myself ~

2008-02-18T01:25:00.002+08:00

February 18, 2008... Just another day of holidays, BoRED~ so just a show case what I did~

You Are Wind

Strong and overpowering
A force to be reckoned with, no one dares cross you
You have the power to change everything around you
You are best known for: your wrath
Your dominant state: commanding

What Type of Weather Are You?

Your Chances of Being a Multimillionaire: 76%

You have a good chance of being a multimillionaire. Better than most people.

You simply have a natural knack for money and the personality for success.

Will You Be a Multimillionaire?

Your Personality Is

Rational (NT)You are both logical and creative. You are full of ideas.

You are so rational that you analyze everything. This drives people a little crazy!

Intelligence is important to you. You always like to be around smart people.

In fact, you're often a little short with people who don't impress you mentally.

You seem distant to some - but it's usually because you're deep in thought.

Those who understand you best are fellow Rationals.

In love, you tend to approach things with logic. You seek a compatible mate - who is also very intelligent.

At work, you tend to gravitate toward idea building careers - like programming, medicine, or academia.

With others, you are very honest and direct. People often can't take your criticism well.

As far as your looks go, you're coasting on what you were born with. You think fashion is silly.

On weekends, you spend most of your time thinking, experimenting with new ideas, or learning new things.

The Three Question Personality Test

You Are a Phoenix

Driven and ambitious, you tend to acquire material success easily.

You have grand schemes - both for your own life and for changing the whole world.

You are a great leader, and you have no problem taking the reigns.

However, you aren't all business. You also have great talents for performing and visual arts.

What Mythological Creature Are You?

Your Power Element is Wood

Your power colors: green and brown

Your energy: generative

Your season: spring

Like a tree, you are always growing and changing.

And while your life is dynamic, you are firmly grounded.

You have high morals and great confidence in yourself and others.

You have a wide set of interests, and you make for intersting company.

What's Your Power Element?

What Seah Shao Cheng Means

You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong.

You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know.

You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.

You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.

At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.

You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.

You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.

Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.

Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.

You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life.

You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you.

At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.

You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily.

You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind.

A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.

You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.

You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life.

You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone.

Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

There's a Chance You Could Be Violent

Overall, you're a pretty chill person - and you have a good handle on your emotions.

Sometimes your anger gets the best of you, and end up regretting how you act.

Try to curb your temper more often. It only has to get out of control once to do some damage.

Could You Be Violent?

2008-02-14T01:20:00.005+08:00

February 14th, 2008, its Valentines Day(1 hour into it)~ Though I had never made any effort to remember this date because I don't have to =D But I can tell you tomorrow will be Total Defence Day.Gees~ I'm hopeless, no wonder I'm single. =D

Just now long ago, we celebrated Chinese New Year. As we always do every year since the day we graduated from JYSS, N~Zire made an effort to go on a CNY visit to everyone house. Our parents are getting along well with this clan of friends. I shall spare the details once again, just have a look at the photos

Derrick's House

My House

Si Yang's house

This year had our crazy times and also some "emo" time, along the way not much of the picture was taken, no one was keen of doing so, thus ya~... But this year there is something different, some are missing and we have new faces~ There is also a surprise~ We went to Yi Qi's house for dinner (=D.

CNY this year, is just lacking of the mood~ I wonder why, but the atmosphere is just not right~~I wonder why the laughters are almost fading, I wonder why the smiles on everyone are leaving.I pray hard that is not a bad omen.

Lets talk abit on valentines day, since its valentines day today. Honestly, I forgotten about this day only until Lydia MSN me "Happy V Day". Valentines,I suppose it mean your lovely couple so Valentines day are for lovely couples to celebrate their lovely and sweet togetherness.(WO~~ hair standing~!) nah, honestly I haven't celebrated Valentines day in my life( kind of fail huh?) since my relationship concidently starts after Valentines day and ends before it. 2 year already, I am single; never find luck in this there after 2 years ago but its ok, I never intend or specially wish to be attach so soon~ Lets just be natura. HAPPY VALENTINES DAY to those successful couples out there =D Anyway, I knew of a relationship which ends before this valentines day, they proved their love and cut everyone's throat but they gave up by ending it, haiz lets hope time will heal. Love is a variable of nature, the name swaps around words of emotions.Some starts with a struggle and ends with a question while some are fantasies that last forever.

Gees, I am tired... Going to sleep now~

2008-02-02T23:47:00.000+08:00

02 February 2008, its another 4 more days before we celebrate another new year, =X i mean the lunar new year. Its drawing so near and yet I have about still 80% of my shopping list. Worse is, I had spend quite abit on unexpected situations, Taxi Fares; Birthday presents and food~!!! But more or less it will be at the balance of what I predicted.

Just came back from Melissa's Birthday party. She is celebrating her 21st Birthday!! Anyway, this lady(have to call her this way since she had attain her adulthood) was my Judo Captain back when she is still year 2, now she had graduated but still helping out in judo. I belonged to the judo gang there and they were crapping all the way but it is seriously very funny. Anyway guys, I am going back to judo; for 2 reasons:
1. I am still having the passion and itchiness to be a martial artist
2. Time to go back on form(fitness and muscles)
Going back to judo had already been set quite long ago, but it was just unfortunate that I land myself up in hospital. So yes, going back to judo already. Rudy said that he will be putting me down for grading in March so he says I better come for trainings. Yup, no problem will be going back for training and the first big thing that comes in my way is IVP!!!!!!!!!!!! For the first time the medal looks so interesting~...

Anyway, guess the bad news is I am unable to hit SSE for my job already. I happily hit 72 after the last time I worked, but after which the last 2 sales was on outstanding and another combo had failed installation due to "no signal"~! gees I m back to 68 sales after 3 months. My November and December's hard work, goes right into the drain. But its ok, I'm already looking for better opportunity, most likely I will be going into freelancing. My ultimate objectives of working and studying at the same time is very simple:
- To feel that I am not useless
- To give myself a Financial Freedom before I graduate.
Honestly, I feel super useless to know the fact that I am 18 and still living dependently on my parents, for food for fashion and so on. I want to sort of earn and start learning to financially support myself. Now, I have my own bank balance, I plan my own spendings and my families financial support on me had also go down; it makes me really feel that I had grown up.

Now holidays here, and I just don't understand why am I not so excited about it. Something is missing , I knew it but I'll just let that door shut and don't open it for now. If the zodiac prediction is right, I will take my very opportunity this year to make myself shine~

Thought of the day: You can shut this door right in my face, but I will just open another door. this cycle will never end.

2008-01-26T05:11:00.001+08:00

26th January 2007, early in the morning but I just reached home. Went for two things today, MSH DS chalet and met Honsonn for the usual men talk.

Talking about chalet, quite and pretty fun I believe. Met some new friends, though don't really remember their names. If not, its just mingling with some colleagues that we used to be very fun with. I was being ganged up by two of my colleagues to make me drunk, and yes I knew they were up to this game. But out of social purposes I just blindly fall into their trap. We played up and downs and seriously I was very unlucky in the game. (Think they are very happy that I am the one clearing the beers) I got the highest value card and was supposed to guess the next care to be of higher value or lower value, of course under this case I would have chose lower value card. But what the hell, it came out to be of the same high value. And when it happens that you open a card which has the same value of the opened card, you get double(as what they called pairs). Very lucky, I got 7 pairs. So that means I gulped 14 mouths of beer in less than 10 mins. I continued drinking of course after that but went off early to meet Honsonn for the men talk.

Took a cab down from changi to Tampines then, the fare was like $8(Think the taxi driver didn't turn on the midnight charge) Waited for Honsonn there and we went to buy beer to drink. I can't drink anymore because I was quite full with the beer from the chalet and somemore the perspiration is making me giddy. Drank abit and finally drank the hot tea to cool down. There goes the men talk. You know, men talk only happens when something happened to one man who needs another man to give a lending ear, views and advices. Thus the story shall be spared under the rule of being private and confidential.

Any way, this video I edited for my web multimedia team. Kind of proud with this particular advertisement enhanced and edited by me.

As usual Credits are the must.....

Main Actor: Thin Guo Long
Supporting Actor/actresses:
Wei Jie
Yi Xiu
Footage director:
Evon
Story Board:
The whole team except be because I was absent during the day they are designing the storyboard
Editor and effects::
Shao Cheng(thats me)

Dummy Phone: Sony Errisson K610 (not the shaker phone)
Music:
Delta Fog
HardGay

Kind of my last minute idea to make this video hilarious

Last update before I go, my FYP team chose our project already...
1. SIT- IT items management system
2. Fortex Trading System
3. Event Management System

We are so going to do one of the project up there.

Ok, chilling off...

Thought of the day:
Fated to meet, but not meant to stick...
She makes herself a passer-by...
who says hi and bye...

2008-01-22T23:20:00.000+08:00

22nd January 2007, finally I feel so comfortable... The bed ridden days are over once and for all, I sweat to god that those days are really an agony, I'll never ever go into such situation anymore. So finally I am back to drop an entry here. A couple of things to update.

School again... Time really flies, I am reaching the final phrase of Year 2 as a Diploma in Business Applications student. Use to think I will die under the cruel hands of I.T., well its not the case; falling in love with I.T. now. Life will be so about I.T. project management,Analyzing and designing system so about PHP, Java, HTML, CSS and any other programming languages. I am so imaging myself being part of this ever growing industry of the information age. I am doing fine in school, will not fail, but can't get into the roll of honors for this semester. I had over-estimated about myself, pushed my limits too far. Thought I could handle both job and studies well, but its not really the case. Yes, did really manage well in the first place but soon my body gets tired and things starts to go really wrong. Now, I face some problems of result sliding below 3.5 G.P.A which is kind of affecting my current overall G.P.A. Now I have to really work hard for the final few problems and the last UT to push up my overall G.P.A(preventing it from sliding below 3.65) Lesson learnt, next semester onwards; it will be school results and FYP at top priority.

Sales? 1 week being bed ridden can't really work, so that means no sales for that one week. But my first day back was fruitful although its kind of 'phew', both outstanding sales but cleared already =D So now I have 14 sales, one more to hit the incentives. I am still clinching hopes to get promoted to SSE next month. I am now 12 sales away from this target. Got to get 12 sales in the next 2 weeks, I better do it =D

Speaking of FYP, final year project. Formed my team, comprising the following people. Guo Long, Kee Yong and Shima. Tell you guys I am hopeful and very confident about this team, they are all serious about doing well for this project and that is the attitude. But knowing their working style and their stronghold in I.T. makes me very confident that we will do perfect for this FYP.

Guo Long -> Database language and PHP expert. His magical hands on codes tame the unpredictable system well. He is one serious guy when it comes to programming, having him in the team is like having a walking PHP manual =D. His best is reverse engineering codes, but so perfect that it look as if it is his =D Anyway everyone had to code in this project because if fail to do so will result in individual failure, thus G.L. will help alot to his teammates when we face problem like "SYNTAX ERROR"!!

Kee Yong -> Pretty good in designing and handling multimedia stuffs such as Flash. Very hardworking and dependent teammate to have. His attitude and seriousness during work sings loud and clear to his teammates "Give me the job and consider it done!"

Shima ->Programming is not her cup of tea(according to her) but her working attitude and the willingness to learn and help those around her makes her an ideal choice to be in the team. Anyway, she is the research queen; she finds the best resources from what the world wide web can provide.

As for me?(disclaimer: not being BHB here) Analyzing, planning is my trademark =D , I'll keep my silence and leave the comments for public because my colleague Shao Hui taught me "silent films are full of sounds".

I am all geared up to do fantastic for this particular project and bring this team towards graduation with a wonderful port folio about our FYP. Thats my personal milestone.

MELT camp... I am also dangling about this, but however I am still very optimistic about this camp. I told those who came for the dry run, "MELT camp is going to run at least once before I graduate and that is my promise to Business Climate" I am seeing glimpse of success from this project, though at time this land me into the darkest moments. I will move on about this despite all the shits.

I shall stop here. Gees, haven't get my new year stuffs... Setting aside a bomb for it anyway. Holidays are around the corner as well, I am into some serious business during this holiday. Shall draw the curtains here..

Thought of the day: "I'll forgive myself from all the wrong doings, to take the next important step in life"

2008-01-12T14:02:00.001+08:00

12th January 2007, still no signs of recovering from my fever. It will just go away, and come back soon... haiz, this is really really uncomfortable. Every night or days, I will feel as if my blood and muscles are freezing when its a damn hot and warm day. Gees, just what is happening?? How come it just can't get better like it use to be? I had to get well by Monday, don't wish to jeopardize my academics because of this ignorant virus.

Suppose to have a very good sleep now, but was awaken by some call from the Starhub service hub personnel saying that he cannot find my customer data in the computer system. Thanks to him, he push all the blame to me and the customer demand compensation of his taxi fare and demand a delivery of the desktop to his house. Damn, how am I suppose to do it? I'll take this time to emphasize that there is lots of leaders in this world, but at times leaders are put up into the position without any signs of being a leader. Irresponsibility is his trademark, complaining his agony is his hobby, "I don't know" is the best phrase from him to shut his team members up. Ya, so I hope this is not too obvious to cause any political issues.... As usual, regarding the handling of sales invoice I will find some leaders to help me what is the problem. Only my second resort really helped me, perhaps because he is of higher position. Luckily the reason is explainable and I managed to "tame" my customer. The whole telecom goes like this.

Customer: "Mark, the service center person tells me that they cannot find my particulars in their system, what the hell is your company doing?"
Mark: "This can't be the case, your invoice had been handled up long time ago"
Customer:"Ya, I know... I don't care what you guys going to do, but I had waste my trip here and I can't get my desktop. I demand a compensation from your company. You know the Taxi fare cost me $20++. So what you want me to do now, if I cannot get any form of compensation I will go to CASE and report this case. "
(Gees, I haven't even demand a compensation from you for my wasted trip to your house and found out that you actually know how to install)
Mark: "Sir can I have a moment to check it out with my boss on what is going on exactly?"
Customer: "Sure, but when can I give you an answer? I want it by today"
Mark: "how about that, I will give you an answer hopefully by 3 O'clock"
Customer:" I don't want to hear hopefully, 3 O'clock means 3 O'clock"
Mark:" Ok, sure by 3, I'll give you an answer. just a moment"
Customer: " Can I also have the name of your boss, contact number and also your company name in 5 mins"
Mark :" Sir, please allow me to do the investigation before you lodge a complaint."
Customer: " No, I trust that you can do the investigation for me, but I just want a higher ranking person just in case you couldn't give me an Answer"
Mark :" Sir, when I know the reason you will know, I promise"
Customer: "Ok, you call your boss now"
Mark: " Can, I'll call you in a short while"
1st telecom ended.

Called Andy.....
Called Ray.... but need some time to check out the case.
Called Customer again...

Customer: " Hi Mark, so how?"
Mark: " Hi sir, ya, I had send your particulars over to my boss to check out. But this might take some time as you know its not a working day today."
Customer:(surprisingly he is so understanding now) " Ok, no problem so what about the compensation?" (ok fine, take back my words -_-''')
Mark :" Sir, I hope you understand that I am just a small staff in the company but I will try to negotiates any forms of compensation I can get for you; but i cannot give you any guarantee on that . "
Customer: " Yes, I understand because I am a sales person myself as well, whenever my operation went wrong I will always negotiate with my boss to give compensation to the customer"
Mark :" Yes I understand, just allow me to try before anything?"
Customer: "Ok can, I'll be waiting for your good news"
Ray called a short while later with the reason and I sort it out with the customer.. Phew.. what a great escape....

Now, got to rest... Gees this is really tearing me apart...

2008-01-10T18:57:00.000+08:00

10th January 2007, Mark's down. Never felt so bad before, never been in such agony before. The weather really sucks big time... Argh~~ feeling so unwell... Oh please god, save me from this agony...

2008-01-01T23:49:00.000+08:00

January 1st, 2008.... 2007 had come to its full stop...

So this time round, my countdown method to the new year is totally different from the previous years. Away from the boring usual "5-4-3-2-1" and the waiting. Instead we had a BBQ that day and we count down to the new year and gave a toast to everyone. It will be a long grandmother story if I were to type my whole day in this entry, so just show some photos will do. (pictures says a thousand words)

see.......some always thought we have too much food to play with.....

The differences between a 15 year old and 18 year old =D

The "remainings"(you should know who's missing for good?)

The "Xiao Yi Pai"

N~Zire @ countdown 2008(Pasir Ris Park)

Have been counting down with this group of really good buddies for almost 6 years.... The best blessing I have got so far in my entire life...

I had my year resolution coming through last year, so I hope it will be the same for this year =D... Anyway, at my age; how wide can the scope be??? Now...Here is the list of things I am aiming for; for my new year

1. 3.8++ GPA before graduation.
2. Qualify for a Merit diploma
3. A's for both my Final year Projects
4. Have at least a bank balance of 5K*NEW(aiming to be rich one day)
5. Tone my body by June
6. Master Guitar

Short and sweet, this will be my six wants in the new year... Shall practice the law of attraction on it. Anyway brothers, sorry to disappoint that finding a girlfriend is still not in the my yearly resolution (anyway girlfriend is a need not a want) =X haaz. Let this sort of things take its natural course will do, no point aiming....

So year 2008 had started, time really flies as usual. The happenings in 2007 are still so vivid in my mind as if they were just yesterday. Really growing up now, and life is also getting more and more filled with responsibilities and expectations. Though its going to be tough and tiring for the coming year due to studies and work, I believe 2008 will be a wonderful year for me =D

thought of the day: Land here...Don't be another flyby of my life....

2007-12-31T07:24:00.000+08:00

31st December 2007, so early in the morning but frankly I had not sleep for the past few hours.

I was totally drained after finishing the day installation. Run about Tampines and Bugis to get some shit installation done(luckily can claim). After the shits, headed back to the office to return those shits. Then I waited for Nigel shit to be done, but it was never done since something even more shitty happened. Geeess, did I just cursed someone really badly that it happen or is it just pure coincidence??? Anyway, Nigel said:"Job, its all about enjoying the process". Well, I enjoy the moment when an installation under me was successful =) Due to the shit that happen last night, I will have to go down to the problematic case at Seng Kang later in the evening, I will have better pray that they will be nice today or I might need a ear pluck during the installation. So thats how my second last day of the year looks like. Anyway, let me end this story by saying " Shits cost money...."

disclaimer: If you don't understand any of the shits above, never mind just understand that its shit and ask me no questions and I will tell you no lies (thanks Amanda, this line is really useful to me now)

Well, so might be late for the BBQ today due to the shit. Shall catch some sleep now and I will be back tomorrow to tell my new year resolution =D It came true for the year 2007, I will really hope it will also be that way for year 2008.

Thought of the day: Human minds are so wonderful that they really shape this world with conspiracy and lies...

2007-12-30T01:08:00.000+08:00

30th December 2007, 1 more days to the last day of the year 2007. Never see that coming actually, had been so busy with work that I had grew numb to time(In fact, I took granted of it).

Anyway, celebrated Christmas with my colleagues. Mainly Amanda, Mayvin, Sabrina, Shao Hui and Jaclyn. As you can see, all are girls why? Nigel had family gathering at the very last minute(fine its ok), Kong Yang, Ian and Andy went to Zhong huan. And for the rest, either they are in the office or totally not invited. At first it was quite bored, no spray no fun(at least to me) so we are like searching high and low for some people selling those sprays. Finally after the count down we found them. Bought 4 bottles and finally had fun with it before being caught in a human traffic jam where I almost beat up the 'Bs'(trying not to be racist) behind for pushing and pushing and still pushing. Edmund join us only to find himself covered with those foams but he left shortly after that. Tonned over at a bridge near Esplanade and took a cab home after that. Christmas sweetly ended.

Was quite bored at home the next day, so drag my brother out for a walk only to find that it could be a mistake. I was bomb by him financially . But its ok... Seriously...

So here is the plan for the first week of January before I am back to school, I am going slow and steady for my job; but I am going to be hard on my studies. Mainly because the final showdown is here!!

The Understanding tests are already queuing up to challenge my knowledge for the last time before I graduate year 2. I am so going to hit hard on this, making sure its a straight As' for the final 4 papers . That's my plans for the last term.
Well, before the school reopens, I believe I will like to spend some of my pay on the clothings for the both new years(lunar and the Georgia).

Besides that, I am going to announce that I happily closed 31 (potentially 32 sales) for the month of December. So that is going to earn me big time again =) Happy is not enough to describe my earnings for the month December. In addition, I am still going to collect some more cash for doing installation =D Just out of curiosity; do we get to get Christmas Bonus as well *money face* Will be so paradise if we do.. =D

I shall stop here.... This could be the last entry of the year as I believe I will be very busy for the next 2 days to blog. So WISH EVERYONE A EARLY HAPPY NEW YEAR!~! haha...

2007-12-17T03:05:00.000+08:00

December 17th, 2007; half way through the month of December. Finally, its holiday!! So that will also mean extra time to sleep, more focus on sales and time to buck up what I had left out for the term. Anyway, it had been quite a busy week for the last week and I am seriously ill. Having a cough and flu that never seems to be going away.

School? Well, results are sliding but I had put up myself for the last week before holidays to get myself a straight A's for all the problems in the modules. Well, happy to announce, " I DID IT!!!!!!!!" here is my results for the last week...

Yes, got As' for daily grades, now I need to pull up my UT grades. Have been too focus on some other stuff that my UT grades are also sliding. UT 3 and 4 will be the final showdown and I must score straight As' for that as well. At least this will safe keep my ass in the academic roll of honours. G.P.A 3.71 is definitely not enough for me, I will give all my best to hit that 3.8 when I graduate. So thats for my school life.

Sales? Just went I thought I will flunk my December,but I decided not to give up. Law of attraction indeed, just kept imaging myself getting sales and run out of the low sales nightmare. Got something very rewarding today, total of 7 sales from Yishun, plus yesterday's call back; I got 8 sales more to be added on to my usual 10 sales. So totaling up, I have 18 sales for the month of December. Looks like the 30 sales target is still possible for me to hit within this month; shall strive all the way. Anyway beside myself being happy, Amanda(Likey) is also enjoying the great sales from Yishun, (HAHA) happy for her; and I believe she is really happy as I can see her wide smile everywhere she goes when we are still at Yishun. XD

Arh, had been having late nights nowdays; shall turn in now...

thought of the day: Law of attraction really works!!

2007-12-02T23:28:00.000+08:00

December 2nd, 2007; getting atrocious in the updating of my blog. I am seriously being caught up by quite alot of stuffs and by the time I finish doing all I had need to do, its already too late and usually I am a dead meat by then. Thus apologies to neverending89.blogspot.com and those readers.

Well,November was a pretty enjoying month for me as I celebrated a new self record in sales. So I finally hit my 20 sales and will be expecting to get the incentives and commissions by christmas. That will be around 900+ which is really exciting me now =D. Now I am left with 40 Sales to hit for December in order to promote to senior sales. But having mix feeling about promoting, simply because, the price to pay is...
RESPONSIBILITY++
EXPECTATIONS++
but the rebate is....
PAY ++ (haha, that is the motivating factor ya?)
Nigel is like getting 10 sales for the month of December already and I really have to buck up for my sales as I am kind of sliding down. But shall not let that happen. Anyway, it was just yesterday when something really shocking happen to me. We are opening our roadshow @ bedok yesterday and I was like getting the invoice out to sign up a cable TV and a Maxonline for my customer who is already seriously interested(at least from her smile and the nod of head), her friend who said will introduce this promo to his friend to sign up with me; he went away to make a call to get his friend IC and sign up for him. To my shock, after the call; he just came back and drag his friend(the one who is signing up with me) away without any reasons why they change their mind just repeating himself(Think about it first, next time) But more or less I know what he wants, he is wanting a free gift + discount for both of the service, so he was like bargaining with me to get him a CTV subscription and give him discount of 50% and give him the Free LCD TV MONITOR(HD Ready) and like Maxonline $44.94 8mbps with LAPTOP Free and 1 year contract(which is super ridiculous, if Starhub ever come out with this promotion i will seriously consider going somewhere else as they will lose money big time that they have problem paying me). I was quite affected by the case and was really moody yesterday; furthermore I got approached by existing customer like a customer service officer(when i am suppose to be a sales executive) to answer customer complaints and their technical problems. I wasted bedok yesterday because Nigel got 5 and Mayvin got 3 yesterday. Left aside to weep for a better day. But its ok, as I celebrate a real good day today 2 sales from Yew Tee(I should starting changing my mind on yew tee).

School life... I have serious problems on my results now. Scoring C+ and B+ for my test instead of my targetted As, this is really affecting my results. All my module predicted grades are now B+ except for System Analysis and Design which is A. Wa LAO!! I STILL WANT MY 4 As.... Shall buck up for a final showdown~~
Choosing my specialization soon, have what i want in mind already; just going forward for the business electives briefing tomorrow to hear out from them about the various offer.

MELT. IT JUST GET POSTPONED POSTPONED AND POSTPONED.... but I never wanted to do so but I have so many things to consider. Perhaps partially its my fault for being side tracking for a short period which screws up everything. Haiz... always bounded by those stupid reasons i get, stupid excuses i get, stupid last min amendments..haiz... I had never tasted support for quite a long time, and till now; I felt so being betrayed that just feel like quitting and get back to what I am suppose to be doing(like studying and get to University and get to my main field)

Shall stop here and go to sleep.. Web application tomorrow, hard day ahead ...

2007-11-18T01:57:00.000+08:00

November 18th, 2007. Its approximately 1 hour into the new day. Just came back from my company's gathering.

We spend our gathering over at East Coast Park, playing Frisbee,Soccer, Volley ball and my personal loathe, dog and bone.I seriously enjoyed the soccer game especially the beautiful step over and following a perfect shot into the goal. That was the first blood, and also some cuts on my feet, since we are playing on sand; doing step over is such a difficult task on sand(The ball just doesn't go with your momentum, it either your leg get stuck into the soft sand; or you will find yourself leaving the ball behind you) I score a second goal after a few minutes, after making a great escape from the goalkeeper's hand. Eventually we lost; taking the fact that all my teammates are dead tired running on the soft sand. We played monkey with frisbee on the beach after the soccer match, and that last us the whole evening before we went off for dinner. Ken, Amanda and I are all victims for today, Ken got pinned down; I got sat on the head by Andy(damn pissed off by that) and Amanda ate sand today =D

After dinner was pool, I win 2 rounds and lost 1 round. I shall spare the details as it is seriously nothing much. Took a cab home with Nigel, and I am very very pissed off by the driver. He was talking bad about Nigel for being stupid and lazy of him to U-turn into the road and drop him off when he can walk a few distance(WHAT THE FUCK, got money for you to earn you still ass so much) He was insulting me all the way during the journey,well I was too tired to even respond to him. But there is this particular comment which he made that really really boils me. He asked me where am I studying so I am really proud to tell him I am from Republic Polytechnic. Curse him to make the following comment "Why you go that polytechnic", I was telling him that because I choose one of the subject which caters what I want in the future. Haaz, he replied "Cannot be la, how much you score for your english". I thought its not a harm to be honest, thus I told him that I got a 7 for English, and the next sentence he said really really hurt and pissed me off. "No wonder, that only that polytechnic will accept those who fail English. " Get so pissed off and just reply him " ya - ya" for the rest of the journey, just too tired to bother about his comment. But eventually I did something out of that vengeance, I took out 10 dollar and asked him to keep the change, then I told him " Uncle, keep the change and next time just concentrate on the road, don't talk so much and make so much comments." We were waiting for the traffic lights before my alighting point, and he was telling me that his son have no interest in polytechnic as he got the potential to go to JC and stuff like that, making the comment that it is hard and impossible for poly grads to go to University and even if the go they just can't make it there. I got so agitated that when I asked him "How you know?", he confidently replied"I used to work in NUS as a computer engineer researcher"(arh, can't remember what he used to work as but it should be some researcher), out of my anger i replied"oh, then you are now a taxi driver, how sad? Your son still proud of you?"

Well,I am really angry with what that driver had commented; it makes me feels that this society, this country is only caring about those who walk through a Straight 'A's in O'level and JC school life and finally University. Hopefully thats not the case, if not this country will really be a gone case. But come to think of it, it just struck me something which I regret in life(for not putting 100% into my O'levels). I had learn my mistakes, but this wrong doing had lead me to a place(Republic Polytechnic) where I found my real interest and had changed my life. I putting 100% into my school work now, striving so hard for a high GPA; get a place in the academic roll of honors; just because I have a favor to fulfill for myself.

thought of the day: I know myself, might not be very clever and talented; but I don't need anyone to specially prove that to me!!

2007-11-11T01:06:00.000+08:00

November 11th, 2007... Finally, I'm back to do some clearing of cobwebs. Its school holiday!!! for just one week, anyway I am too late to celebrate that since school is reopening this coming Monday.

I had finally finished my PP report last week, just in time of the submission date. Well it has been approved by my advisor thus I am clear for the presentation. So I will be presenting on how bricks and mortar retail stores can e-commercialize their business. Haaz, maybe my idea will work one day? So much that you will get to see Online Giordano or even TOP SHOP? But now I have a big problem, because I am still not done with my presentation materials.

Anyway, October is over and its pleasant to announce that I have hit 15 sales for that month. Its quite unsafe to hit that number as there might be a chance where 1 sales actually cocks up or something like that; then I will be down with 14 only which will not eligible me for the $130 incentives. But lets just pray for it. So, I will hit my personal target of cash in bank within 2 months with the cash from my October and September sales plus the bonus from my boss Andy(hopefully he remembers). November and December will be the peak period for sales, so I am aiming HIGH!!

M.E.L.T, something which I am seriously headache about. No replies from schools and I wonder how my teammates are doing with their task. I am seriously being tied down by working and PP and so on,that I almost forgot about this project. Its time to drift back on track....

Ahh..anyway I am dead tired, shall continue some other time....

2007-11-02T13:09:00.000+08:00

November 02, 2007... Finally back to blog and I am feeling so overwhelmed today. Anyway the month of October had been really stress and busy for me. Surrounded by M.E.L.T, work, school and PP.

Job as a sales executive is really getting very well. Hit 15 sales by 29th October thus I really really hope that I can get the incentives and bonus which will earn me a thousand plus for the month October. Got to check it out with the customer if their services are good and steady, if not I will not get the incentives. November is here, a brand new sales month; lets aim high for November.

School? feeling so overwhelmed nowadays, no longer good at doing stuffs. No longer appreciated, no longer driven as usual. My results are slacking, and I just don't know how to cope it now. Really afraid of the slide in results. Finding myself learning nothing as the day go by. There is so many people over taking me now and I seriously feel that I had just failed my own target. Am I being brought down??

Well, seriously finding a way out.... Perhaps I have to buck up over the holidays.

2007-10-03T00:47:00.000+08:00

October 03th, 2007.... Seeing cobwebs around the blog.... Life had been so far so good...

Job as a starhub sales executive is very good. Total sales had reach 14 today. To be honest I am hell far away from the quota set by my team leader Andy. 40 Sales for the month October. Seriously thinking of ways to get to that target. Can't possibly work everyday now, will have to mug on PP and melt camp as I had really neglect my attention on these issues for quite a time. PP is half done and my teammates in M.E.L.T is no where to be tracked... Anyway the quota still have to be met so that I will get just another treat from my leader =D

Just that Saturday, got a treat to a bar=) Cool atmosphere and a simple great place to slack and get drunk. Feel like singing the song Great Escape there... So anyway took some shots at the bar.
Half-Drunk

Tiger Rocks!

Chilling blue in the bar

Made some new friends there, hopefully. Actually they are more like my colleague than anything.Friends stay in the same world. Awww~~ Bar was so great...

School? what else beside taking the frustrating bus, doing the problems and dealing with different kinds of teammates? Again a SO FAR SO GOOD for the school life in school. Not really bored by the surrounding classmates and some occasional pissed off by facilitators. Well still doing fine and aiming high for the 4 modules A!!

Still left with some cash from the previous pay after working for Golden Village. 4 complimentary movie pass, its a where, when and who can go for a movie? Watching Movie alone in the Cinema, any thing more boring than this? Or should I give it away to those who watch movie more than I do? Try to buy something using my pay last week, so have a slight shopping with Honsonn, went to bugis streets and TOP man... So many temptation but I curb just manage to keep that sum back for rain... =D Waiting for the next pay from Starhub, shall see the figure go up before i spend =D

I was telling almost everyone that I am getting a little socially active and playful nowadays despite the fact that I am back to school!! Maybe this is because my buddies are still at holidays thus I am in their social activities. Anyway getting a little too playful and unstable for the few days back and I am getting a little annoying and irritating to people around me. Time to be myself....

Shall stop here for the day... Forever praying for a good next day...

Thought of the day: We pay for our actions, Take the changes and keep the receipts.

2007-09-20T23:23:00.000+08:00

September 20th, 2007... M.E.L.T got its green light to run, school had reopen it doors for those hell-seekers and me; the starhub salesman is getting well with the sales.

The first big news, M.E.L.T got its green light to run on one of the holidays. Unfortunately we seems to be crashing with some RP events during the December. Prem will be checking it out for us and we are most likely to get M.E.L.T running. Its really puts a big smile on my face after my presentation with the student advisors and facilitators, which was when I know that M.E.L.T had got its green light. I hope I am not the only one celebrating this.... Finally my can see one of my secondary school wish coming true. Will move ahead with the plan !!

School reopen for some of us to seek some torturing from PBL. First day of school was Web Applications. I really enjoyed the day as I did some HTML and PHP codes for the day. Sad that I am not the first person to crack the mystery of the day, but I am the overall person who solve the solutions. But I am just afraid all my efforts are not being seen. System Analysis and Design, for the first day we analyzed the various System development Life Cycle. We took maple story as our guidelines. Again, a interesting module which I totally enjoy it!! Third day of school, Operating System Concept, mixed feeling about it. Seems to be quite a difficult module but yet I enjoy the theory behind the module. I am happy with my own performance for the pass 3 days, have not really deteriorate, but just wish that I will still maintain my results. I want 4 modules A for this semester!!! Anyway, my new classmate Evon told me" hey you are very on, every time do problem will tell us what to do next and ...." Well, thats my style... Always get the job done...

Hmmmm... So I am still into aiming for higher G.P.A. There is this thing from Republic Polytechnic which I am looking forward to get it. Its more than a roll of honors and it is more than just a diploma. ITS THE DISTINCTION DIPLOMA which I am aiming for. The criteria for the distinction diploma is a total of 12 modules A and 3.5 G.P.A and above. So in total after 3 semesters, I have 6 modules 'A'. Its a good sign as all my planning and calculations is falling into places. So I will need 6 more modules to get that diploma, aiming a 4 this semester and if possible 3 each for the last 2 semester. For Final year project, I hope I will get an A as well =) Thus by the end of the year 3 I will expect at least a GPA 3.7 and a diploma distinction =D I will do it!!

So far so good for being a star hub MSH direct sales executive. Total for the week I have 7 sales. But sad to say I will be getting the commission for 3 sales this month as the other 4 sales are next month's sales. That was because some customer wants to sign up next month but they wish to sign the invoice now, thus its a confirm sale... but next month... My result of door to door sales in yishun wasn't very well for the past weeks. My sales shot up when I am having roadshow at woodlands civic centre. Woodlands residents are so nice!!! I am giving myself a target, 25 sales each month for my beginning stage. Once I hit 25 sales for each month I will plus 5 to every stages I go. XD

Guess that will be all, kind of tired already... Shall stop here....

Thoughts of the day: TOMORROW WILL BE A BETTER DAY
(something which we sales man always preach ourselves)

2007-09-11T10:06:00.000+08:00

September 11th, 2007; its the anniversary of the horror from 911 incident, that was about a few years back when I was still in school uniform. Well, I have no comments on that incident; just aware you guys of the day.

2 days into sales line with no sales, quite demoralizing ya? Got a few contacts from potential customer but I have to be hardworking enough to call them back. Nigel and Shawn each got their first sales yesterday while I 'enjoy' hearing, from the the customers "I'll consider and call you back?". Both are not working for today as they are having taekwando later. I skipped judo as I am waiting for some calls from customers who some preach that they will call today. Will be joining Andy and some of the seniors to the roadshow later. I SERIOUSLY HOPE AND PRAY TO HAVE SALES TODAY!!

In the mist of doing this, I am actually starting up my Professional Profiling. That is so finally, I had been dragging this for 2months and I had yet to start. I had better start do it now or I'll be screwed for the year. 2 more weeks to the submission of the PP draft and approximately 1 month more to the final submission. Have to dedicate one to two of the weeks to charge all the way.

M.E.L.T camp, I suppose I am getting a green light soon to run this. Suppose to have a presentation today but Prem is unable to make it together with the other facilitators, Alex and Patrick. Have been delaying the approaching of schools for 2 to 3 weeks already and furthermore delays will lead to the postpone of the actual camp dates to next year. That is the least of the least or not what is my expectation.

My next stop in Republic Polytechnic, W65E. Same block different level different room. A few of the new faces I am going to meet and also a few familiar faces I will see. A handful of W66D students are in the same class as me for second semester. Kee Yong, Ain, Roy, Xueli and Fiona. Apart of this some faces I know who I know them through various reasons, ex classmates; ex SA members, camps and etc. Ismadi, Guo Long, Chu Ling. Other than that, the others are all new faces. For the facilitators, I have 3 facilitators who had taught me before in other modules. Cynthia , Jimmy and Deborah. Again I hope to have a good time, enjoyable time with my classmates. Target for my next semester would be:
1. Maintain my position in the roll of honors
2. Maintain 3.5 and above
3. Get at least 3 modules A!

Saying a BIG hi to those interesting modules coming up in my second semester. Web Multimedia, Web Applications Development, System Analysis and Design and Operating Systems. Will work hard on all these modules ya.

Guess, I got to get back to my work =D I am putting up a optimistic mood for my job later. I will get sales today!!!

2007-09-08T01:37:00.001+08:00

September 8th, 2007... A series of unhappy and happy stuff. Broke my specs due to some uncivilized hooligans found in Tampines. Found the confident to take up the challenge from Starhub to sell its cable TV and Max Online products. Results for AY07/08 semester 1 is out and its really a jump for me.

As usual, Friday is a day when members of N~Zire will meet out for a slack. I played Mix Martial Arts with Shawn. Quite nice, we play jabbing and kicking. I have to say I am a total lousy guy when it comes to striking. I only manage to jab shawn a couple of times and most of times I escape and block or got beaten. After which did some sharing of martial arts. Shawn shared his Taekwando skills and I shared some of judo. I introduce them my favourite throw "Tai-Otoshi" which is a shoulder drop and demonstrated them how I can execute them when I am attacked and charged. Out of an accident, without warning I slam Shawn onto the ground which actually gave him a short concussion. Felt really guilty about that but he was alright later. This enjoying part of the gathering was being spoiled when I am provoked by some real irritating hooligans.

A roughly 3 year old kid was with them and he was playing around the playground. Because I was playing MMA so I took off my specs and placed it at one safe corner where I can see it. So this kid actually took my specs and broke it into pieces. His sister i suppose saw that he was playing the specs and didn't even take it away from him and just let him play with it. Until I found out and approach her to ask" excuse me that is my specs". All she do is look at me and say something which I don't understand, I have to personally take the specs from the kids hand. The gang actually starts to approach me when they saw me did that. But my bull temper is actually taking over me and I believe I would have charge and kill one of them. They walk off as if nothing had happened and I was so angry that I almost took the ball beside me and slam it to the hooligan. But I know that will eventually start of a fight so I keep dribbling the ball to actually relax myself down. Out of a uncontrolled bull temper, I kicked the ball to the far side of the park and eventually almost hit one of them. They of course stared back and went to one corner to discuss some stuffs. We suspect that they are actually intending to come confront us. Well I have to say with the bull anger coming to me at that moment I will be more that happy to entertain them and I will be sure that my buddies who all have taekwando experience will join in with me and I eventually calm my bull down. I am not blaming the kid, but the sight of his hooligan sister and friends really irks me.

In these tight situation I have, even if they surround me I am sure what I will do. Take one of the hostage, throw him onto the concrete and attempt to break his arm and threaten the rest. I will not kill that person and will eventually roar to show my crazy state. They will eventually back off, which at least I believe. Honsonn was asking, if a stronger person fights with you and you manage to pinned him down and will you kill him or whatever? For me, in conscious state I will not kill him but threaten him with some weapon and roar to get him away. Even in a fight I believe I will resort through some cunning method instead of take all and waste my energy. But a question open to all, "will you fight for your friend, who is provoked?" I am sure my buddies will be down for me if the worse case scenario happen just now. =)

Phew, that is a real long blog. Just another good news to share. I GOT INTO THE ACADEMIC ROLL OF HONOR for this semester! Its really a good news for me for that is my target since year 1 sem 2. This roll of honor is limited to the top 5% of the whole institute, thus I am really proud of my entry. For now I will clinch it like never before and will never let it go...

I got this promoter job for starhub products. The pay is high but its commission based and its really not wise for one to work if his objective is to earn. But I took up the challenge and I believe this job will bring my presentation skills to the next level at the same time gaining some experience of what is real Hard Earn money. I am clear that main objective is to give myself this challenge and also earn some hard earn money. Well I shall try it out, should it exceed my limits and I will know what to do....

Will be working the last day for GV tomorrow. Getting the pay and will soon reopen my bank account =D

2007-09-06T20:08:00.001+08:00

September 06th, 2007. Went to another job briefing today, to become a star hub promoter. Hmmmm but I am kind of vague about something as to, I just found out that star hub actually outsource their sales to a outsource company?

No standard pay but all base on commission. If I can get a customer to sign a plan of $53.50 I will get the pay of $40 per plan I sell. And at every 15 plans I sell I will get $130 and the number will climb as more plans I sell. I did some calculation and if my sales is good, I can earn as much as $1000 within 1 month or even lesser than that. Best of all is they allow us to work with our friends in group and the time we work are negotiable. You can even afford to have 1 sales out of the whole month and there is no punishment. It is really a paradise job and the HR person is really convincing me.

But I am not so sure about the validity of all these things, went to ACRA to check on the company but they are under the directory. I went to their company's website, its up but its not really in details. The trustworthy part of this company is only that they are in a known building, from a trusted newspaper I saw the job. Nevertheless, I did some estimation and calculation I will not lose anything even if I sell nothing or the company is actually a scam or something like that, so I am going for this job.

Suddenly I have this urge to earn lots and tonnes of money. Getting sick of being poor and also getting jealous with those who are rich around me. I reached home, sat down with my parents to again hear their moaning and groaning of family and financial problems. Well, I have something which I am really unhappy but I really have to say it out today because its really getting out of hands. My father is a sole breadwinner and he earn barely $2000 per month, with that little amount of money he have to look after 7 mouths. Out of these 7 mouths , only one is not deserving. This person stayed at my house and had been doing so for FOC since the day I was borne. My siblings are growing up and soon the family expenses is going up and we all need spaces to grow, furthermore I will be graduating soon to go to University and my father will have to again fork out a bomb for that. But some idiot just don't understand these and continue leeching my family income. Due to this leeching, I will never fail to hear my parents moaning and groaning that there is not enough money for survival.

Well, I know that if that pest is off and my family will be off of all the financial agony. I have lots of cunning ideas for my parents to solve this thing. But its going to tear this whole family apart and some relatives will start to come in for a major 'Seah' Civil War. I don't want to see that, thus I can only listen to those agony from my parents. All I can do now is to start planning on working part time to earn some for my own pocket money and not taking too much from my parents. But I just want that leech to know, a few breads you brought home are not enough to stuff my mouth. Don't bring me to a stage where I will put you down for my parents with my cunning and crafty ideas.

I have to say that I am not as bad as my siblings who share the same loathe to the leech in my house. At least I still bothers to keep my hands behind to save some happiness in this family. My brother can do things such as deliberately destroying the leech property and my sister switching channel without asking her whether the leech is watching it.As for me, I always go into the room and borrow things without asking her. Its not really respectful because after all the leech is someone senior in my family, but her actions are really irking the family upside down.

Thought of the day: Parents will guide the way out for you, but they will not be forever there for you. Your life is yours and its only wise for you to learn to be independent.

2007-09-02T23:01:00.000+08:00

September 2nd, 2007... Greeted by the alarm from my cellphone, with the song "welcome to my life". Indeed welcoming enough, reported to Bishan GV for work at 12 noon. I bargained with Jason to let me work at Bishan as I only know the procedures there, so just don't want to mix myself up.

To be frank, I really enjoyed working at GV as the promoter of the membership card. Its eyes-opening enough for me. You will get to see different kinds of people approaching you. Some customers are as blur as Sotong, some as aggressive as Lion, some are stubborn and some just don't know why they are there for. Out of all these of course there are some customers who I really enjoyed serving them. Wei Quan and I also enjoyed the splendid view of flowers maybe a couple of trees and bushes around at J8 =D*being cheeky*; well I mean there is alot of pretty girls to watch~! For Wei Quan he has to keep his eyes to himself since he already got his own babe but for me I am free to watch any girls!=D Too bad he have to constantly remind himself "路边的野花不能拆" whereas for me, I just have to remember "路边的野花随便拆" HA HA~~~Well its just the glare will do, I don't expect anything more than phone numbers from those girls. Besides that motivating factor, I am still waiting for my pay!!

Working with GV on this membership card which is a project of the marketing team, I saw some real good marketing strategies adapted by GV. Stuffs like free membership which will draw big crowd. The smart move I saw is the $6.50 movie ticket. For most, they will thought its $6.50 every day, but on closer look its actually every Tuesday only. I am an idiot to cinema and only know that it is a way for GV to 'con' and make big money thus I asked one of the marketing staff why must it be specifically on Tuesday. She told me because the rate of Monday and Tuesday is the lowest and on Wednesday the rate will increase till Sunday at $9.50. They don't wish to loss the $9.50 per ticket during the weekends, thus used the lowest rate to play with the consumer. In a way, people will be happy to see cheap movie tickets at the same time GV will see their cinema with life even on non peak days such as Tuesday and Monday. There are still a number of benefits as a member but I decided not to post it here as I am off duty now =D. I got a membership myself and the card looks something like that.

After this working experience, I am getting more interested in marketing and advertising together with retailing and sales.XD. And YEAH! I am set to what I want to take for my year 3 electives and core discipline.

I can't really rest for my holidays still as there are still things for me to complete and look into.M.E.L.T camp, I just hope it can get a green lights from Prem. Its my secondary school life's dream, to run a big camp. Though I was not old and professional enough to take the challenge that time, thus my chance had come today; just as much as anyone in the team I don't want to fail this camp.Judo training every Tuesday and Thursday, guess I have to start skipping some due to the project and also to give myself some break before I break down. On the relaxation part, adventurous week with N~Zire. Cycling around Singapore and toning out of home for 3 days 2 night. Its a personal camp that we had organized for ourselves, hmmm something is up my mind again... X) Together with some Gym to do, jogging and Physical conditioning. I am so going to brush up some skills in Flash and dream weaver in preparation of the new semester.

I guess that should be all for today.. Here I am waiting still for a call about the discussion... -_-''' Shall wait some more... Tomorrow will be swimming!!

2007-08-31T00:03:00.000+08:00

31st August 2007, celebrating the last day of August. Well, again I am early for an entry. Its one week into holidays and seriously I had not felt any relaxing moments since then. Monday to Wednesday was judo camp, Thursday which is today had a briefing for a roadshow job which will happen today(Friday).

Judo camp.... It was quite happening, despite the multiple injuries we had for this camp. All of a sudden, I thought I am back for NCO camp as Rudy and Joe was so fierce and demanding on the Dojo. Well, I was frustrated when I heard their demanding and commanding tone on the dojo, thus I was quite fired up for the exercise and training. Day one was a killer, we did judo training, some PT, a 3.2km jog around our campus and 6 laps of swimming over at the pool in sports complex. Second day was quite fun, despite that I injured my knee cap during a Rendori. Partially my fault as I insisted on a throw ,despite that the opponent had broke my points. Third day, Ivan was injured and I accompanied him to the hospital; then it was a home sweet home...

Well, will be working tomorrow, thus shall stop here. There is much more I have to do now, for M.E.L.T which I will start working on it when I get back home from work tomorrow.

2007-08-27T02:04:00.000+08:00

27th August 2007, a Monday... Feeling so excited for the judo camp tomorrow which gives me this ability to stay up so late to drop an entry here. Besides that I have 2 announcement to make, Semester One is over!! and I HAVE A NEW PHONE!!!

So going to miss the days in my second year of RP education, and I am really proud of myself being able to excel through my IT years. Think of it, I had move out of the IT idiots circle and I am IT savvy now!! =D I hope I'm really a IT savvy as there is still a long journey to be completed in the field of IT. Anyway, I have 3 predicted module grades A, so lets hope I really get them and my semester dream is once again reached =)

W66D~~! I will never forget the times we have, the laughter and the companions. Shall write some message to them here, since everyone one in W66D is doing so in their blog...Anyway SORRY FOR BEING LATE!

For all facilitators...
Bernard( C121 data communication and networking): Professionalism seems to be his core discipline. Never break rules and follow the flow... He can really show off his talent in this module with all his impressive terminologies.

Jimmy( C108 Oriented Object Programming): I will never forget the first 2 Bs he gave me, but I am happy to get A's from him. A very helpful and understanding facilitator if you ever come across him.

Deborah(C107 Database system): To have the ability of floating and sneaking around true is very impressive=p Of course we never know when she will be leaving or had left, but nevertheless I love her module and she is a very helpful facilitator.

Magdalene (C131 IT security and management): She has the appeal to be the apple in our eyes. Never fails to help, never fails to smile, advice and encourage you. I love her comments, they are very enlightening and useful. This module is top core interesting, but got to say sorry as my confidence led to the bad results in UT =(

For my classmates:
Ain and Roy: Very stylish couple over here. For Roy, you have a wonderful presentation skills; my role model when it comes to presentation =D Ain, you are a wonderful teammate, always there to give a helping hand =D

Mei Yean: Never fails to make the class go crazy. Well, I enjoyed your craps alot cause it really ease the atmosphere. But just a reminder, too much yellow colored jokes is bad for health =D ( you should have seen this in your individual comment, now you know who its from ? ) =p

Charlotte: The one with the exact frequency level with Mei Yean. Your laughter is so OMG~~!! Whenever it fills the room, we will definitely know its from Charlotte =D But its nice to have you in class...

Mei Qi: Sleep Sleep Sleep huh? =D You can be very hardworking in your work and you can be a 'A' student in class. You are also very ON, which I personally like it =D Wish you all the best in RP and in your Yamaha =D AND please come for M.E.L.T meeting =D

Wei Quan: Play boy.. haha... Never fails to have some girls chatting with her on MSN. Good teammate with plenty of jokes~! See you in more BC meeting and work together in M.E.L.T camp =D

Kee Yong: Basket, spiderman~! Crappy guy, which can never be told from his appearance. Thought to be anti-social but you are more than it meets the eye.. See you around.

Guess there is too much for me to tell my classmates what I want to say. Sorry for those who I had left out, but no doubt you guys are great in this semester and I wish to see you around in RP =D Awaiting our Pulau Ubin Trip =)
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In collaboration of Judo training camp and M.E.L.T Camp which is coming soon for me, I shall share my camp experience i had~!

2002
-> Sec One interaction Camp( camper)
-> St John annual Camp ( camper)

2003
-> NCO training course/camp(camper)

2004
-> Sec One interaction Camp(Instructor)
-> St John Annual Camp (NCO trainee)
->NCO training camp (Logistics/Messing executive)
-> Sec 3 adventure Camp( Camper)
-> OBS mobile training camp( camper/Watch Medi

2005
-> St John Annual Camp( Overall - in - charge)
-> Sec one Interaction camp ( Group instructor)
-> NCO training course/camp (NCO instructor)

2006
-> RP Cypher club SIT orientation camp(Camper)
-> St John Annual camp(Hiking activity in-charge/ Discipline Officer)
-> Networking IG Camp(Camper)
-> YA club camp(Camper)

2007
-> RP Cypher club SIT orientation Camp(Team leader)

Coming soon~
- Judo camp( Designer/ camper)
- M.E.L.T camp (Project head)

Failed attempts:
- St John interaction camp(2005)
- Mind your own Business workshop day camp(2006)

I had been through lots of camps since I started my secondary school life. Thus with the experience as a camper , leader or organizer; the things I see, feel and found ; I am very assured and confident that I will bring the best for M.E.L.T. Giving all campers a MELTED experience but I just hope my team will share the same as me ...

Thought of the day: SO long for a torture in Judo camp....

2007-08-23T00:21:00.000+08:00

23rd August 2007, Thursday.... approximately 16 more hours to the end of year 2 Semester 1!!! Happy for the holidays, grief for the departing from just yet another group of good friends...

2007-08-18T01:45:00.000+08:00

18th August 2007, 1:46a.m. It seems like all my post are very early. I have really had to declare myself an owl.

Just came back from the usual N~Zire Gathering. Guess some of you are already guessing what is N~Zire. Well simply enough we are just a group of secondary schools friends and friends with chemistry who all have extraordinary and special memories/capabilities which bonded us all so well together even today. Its also a group of leaders, with special thoughts and has been leaders in their own ways.

Its Don's birthday today, so N~Zire had a small celebration for him on the basketball court. Before that was a series of challenging and fun basketball matches. HAHA~~~ We continued playing till the lights are being switched off which follows a chit-chat on current issues and some philosophy(HAHA~~) One particular topic was brought up and I tried to answer as I know the answer but too bad I can't structure and organize my thoughts in time to answer it. The topic was changed since no one have definate answer. Anyway the topic was on what is the difference between Intelligence and Wisdom, and this topic came right after some discussion on the current issues.

After organizing my thoughts which was too late, I came out with these. Wisdom is about making decision and sometimes in the context of advising while Intelligence is about the ability to think and analyze in a way which is better than the other. High wisdom means you can make good and accurate decision and High intelligence means you are able to think more than normal people and analyze things which others might never thought of. Some are wise but not intelligent, some are intelligent but not wise, some have certain level of wisdom and intelligence and some are perfectly both. Some are intelligent where they can think and give good analysis or they have good ideas which they thought of, but they just don't know what to do with them or make wrong uses of them. Some are intelligent, but crisis starts to hit them, they might not know what to do or they might make wrong decisions. Likewise, some had no good and fantastic ideas, but he always know what to do next for his task and make good decisions all because he is wise. When crisis starts to hit them, they have no fanciful ideas to do and turn things upside down but they just know exactly how they could tackle it in reference to their expectations. Some will find themselves being wise at certain issues and intelligent to a certain extents. These sort of category which I believes most average man will fall into. Powerful people can be wise enough to make right decisions and intelligent enough to turn tides, understand things and make new ideas. Some are born with wisdom and making good decision are so easy for them, likewise some are born with this intelligence that ideas flow out of their mind like river. But however out from all these, nevertheless wisdom and intelligence can be gain through years and years of experience. Thats what I thought about the difference between wisdom and intelligence.

Personally I believe I am wise and to a certain extent intelligent. So far I have no problems in making decisions, most of my decisions are right which had not bring lots of problems to me and I generally solve problems with some wise decisions I made. Last but not least, I had council quite a number of people. But though I am blinded at times and made a few bad decisions but they don't usually bad that will cost my life or giving me agony. So far the worse decision I had made is to patch with my ex-girl friend which ended me up in a emotional entanglement. I have no regrets in most of my decisions but the best decision which I am still very happy about is that I decided not to appeal to other schools when i found myself posted to Republic Polytechnic. Seeing me enjoying good results and learning so well, I am happy that I had made this decision which had changed my life to a better end. Another one was to decide to talk and make my stand clear instead of keeping quiet and see things fly by in my team of M.E.L.T management which I saw results coming out which I am personally happy and confident about the camp once again.

Thats all.... hmm somehow I finding out that my perfectionist thinking is going up and is already inviting some people to loathe me. Have to do something to curb that, on my way to earn more respect and more acceptance like what I enjoyed during my OC era in SJAB. Giving myself that drive again...

2007-08-13T23:10:00.001+08:00

13 August 2007, its a blue and angered Monday

Early in the morning I got a shocking news! Someone is actually avoiding me, well I pretty much can guess the reason why. Thus perhaps I will find a right time to talk to her. haiz~~~ being serious in work can also result into such entanglement of friendship, seriously there is something wrong in this world.

Sad to say, I had a whole night of soul searching; actually I had did nothing wrong, perhaps some misunderstanding and over imagination of myself. I am right to ask about the process, else if I will never know it and co-ordinate what that needs to be co-ordinate. I have to protect the integrity of the project, can't just let everyone off and let them do whatever they want. Everyone knows what they are doing, and true enough that is an impressive ability, but thats if you are working alone; don't ever use that when you are in a team because everyone has the right to know what you are doing.

Trust, all of a sudden this word ring in my ears like swam of bees. I used to get this from my ex-girlfriend but right now I have a upgrade. Have I not entrust enough trust? To split my project to so many parts for so many of you to take it up? I could have plan all this on my own, isn't it? Please respect my position and my offer, its not about finishing what is yours and hiding it as if someone will steal it, you are not alone~~~ Yes its hard for me to trust people, but if I had given you the trust, PLEASE STOP DOING THINGS THAT WILL MAKE ME SUSPECT YOU ANYMORE!! I am a defensive person, I know and hope you understand...

Was pretty disappointed after what I saw, thus affecting my mood a little. But solving the day's problem quickly enlighten my mood. Continued to soul search on bus, reached home and strum the guitar; lying on the sofa thinking of the issues; soon after singing "your call", I fall into a deep sleep on my sofa....

2007-08-13T00:02:00.000+08:00

13 August 2007, just 3 minutes into the day and here I am blogging. Just finished doing some parts for the M.E.L.T camp and decided to tell you guys about my dull and irritated life.

Is it my personality?? Why do I feel like everyone is keeping a distance from me? WHAT HAVE I DONE WRONG??? Sometimes I wonder, but it will just be great for a person to actually tell me, am I so unaccessible?

Maybe I am not trusting enough, kind of hard for someone to convince me and receive my trust. I have to say sorry for those whom I had spoke to with suspicious and serious words, its my history that contributes to this. I believe I am a total perfectionist who have high expectations for myself and those working with me, and I understood that sometimes we have to lower down our expectations so that we are not strangling ourselves or those who are working with me. Sad to say, I can't do it, it just makes my heart go sour to see things falling apart and not into place; so guys pardon me.

I believe some people out there have certain expectations from me as well. Which I believe is what all my facilitators and teachers are talking about, potential... I find myself not using my human relation skills to work but with my own working attitude, my ambitions and my foresights. Practically, people approach me if they think I am beneficial to them but little will stay as real buddies to me. I saw this practical reaction in my school, when I can't solve a particular thing, I become nothing to others' eyes..

Life is so unpredictable and this society is so full of conspiracy. You never know what will happen next to you and you can never ever know what people are doing behind you. The most you can do is to suspect with no concrete evidence to take actions. Thus it is important to learn how to handle those who are out to bring you down.... And I promise I will learn to be cruel when I need to... Prejudgments from others, I will learn to prove them all wrong... Pessimistic, am I? No I believe I am just being realistic and practical.

Just got some lecture from my mother as she complain that I am too silly to do things for others without giving myself any benefits. Am I really so? Maybe at times I am just to considerate to others feeling which in the end making myself lost. Perhaps I shall train up on my killer instincts like what Honsonn is talking about. Cruel and fearful at the right time, its all man by himself.

Thought of the day: Why is it that some does things so smoothly with so little unfortunate things happening to them? While some always fails or things doesn't go smoothly and yet receive prejudgments from others?

ShaoCheng-logy(line 9): Cruel to those who are cruel, Friendly to those who are Friendly.

2007-08-10T00:55:00.000+08:00

9th of August, National day; a day where all Singaporeans will remember and celebrate the independence of our nation.

So thus, I followed the gang of N~Zire to the Padang area to actually experience the atmosphere of this celebration. Kind of disappointed since we are unable to get the tickets for the parade and also failed to squeeze to the merlion park to get a close view of the parade. Thus we are left with no choice but to view the performance from the screen on Padang. Fortunately we are still able to view the fireworks and also some air performance. Well done, as I forgot to bring my camera so there is no pictures to show =( But its enough to actually have it in my mind and I swear I will try harder next year to get the tickets.

We joke about our own country, we curse and swear our leaders at times but its very heartwarming to myself that I'm still so happy to be in this nation. Without fail, I will feel the sense of patriotism when national day come and feel so proud when I see the flag flies in the air. It makes me feel that actually after all, we still love this nation of us. Since young, I had never fail to get excited when I am talking about enlisting into the National Service. It might sound very Singapore-educated for me to say that we should protect our own nation and Singapore owe no one a living; but come to think of it actually it all makes sense. Thus doing my best in the army which will soon be coming, had become one of my goal and a must-do principle. Despites all the unfortunate things I have, the failures and unhappiness I believe I will still do my utmost best to protect this country, not because the government taught me so but because this is where I mature, fall and stand up, my friends and most importantly its here where I got the sense of life.

Thats the patriotic paragraph above... M.E.L.T camp is on the run, and I hope I am doing fine as the project head and transparent to everything; I just don't like the feeling of being outdated. Holiday is coming, but it is never going to be a rest, there will be lots to do during this holiday, I will sum them all out in the next entry. Last but not least, I got another A for UT3 networking.. HAHAHA, looks like my target to score good G.P.A is on its run!! A series of happy and good things are happening to me, I love it and will cherish it just pray and hope that these will last longer =)

Thought of the day: I will learn to protect those I love and those who love me, the things I have and my style...

2007-07-26T01:32:00.000+08:00

26th July 2007, back once again.... Having some trouble sleeping, thus thought of blogging now. Hmmmm, just finish up what I have to do for the proposal for the melt camp...

Nowadays, I am working on a list of quotes which is creatively generated by me. This set of quotations shall remind me of my principles. Thus, they will all form Shaocheng-logy. You see, the purpose is because I need something to remind me of my principles so that I will not forget them and betray myself.

About going to school, I should be soon celebrating the coming of HOLIDAY!!! That is so going to be saying good bye to JAVA, IT security, Database and networking. Kind of love these modules though, gave me the specialty. So school was great anyway, as I found back the very moltivation to go back to school. Anyway facilitators are always commenting that I should ask more questions to other teams, hmmm but they never know why I never do so... I don't take questions as personal attacks, but I have this feeling some do. Either it makes the whole class think they are in a war of "A"s or its some principles of theirs which makes them be so defensive. But however, one of my facilitator gave me the following comment, which is quite a useful advice for me.

Sorry its kind of blur, I am particularly attentive to this whole paragraph talking about questioning other team.
" I understand that some students 'shoot' questions for the sake of making the other person look bad, but I hope that you will not feel personally attacked its normal, constructive questioning turns a little aggressive. This is one of the skills that you have to learn. That is learning how to handle people who are out to bring you down. Think about how you can defend your stand, and whether or not the questions they are asking is relevant".
WoW! I love this facilitator... She is right, I have to learn to handle those who are out to bring me down as there seems to be alot... Can't just keep avoiding those people because they will always be back to shoot me down. I shall learn to not let those people get what they want, but maintaining a peaceful me....

hmm.. shall stop here...

Shaocheng-logy (line7) Learn to handle those who are out to bring you down.

In my head, I sing....

Waiting for your call, I'm sick, call I'm angry
call I'm desperate for your voice
I'm listening to the song we used to sing
In the car, do you remember
Butterfly, Early Summer
It's playing on repeat, Just like when we would meet

I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

Stripped and pollished, I am new, I am fresh
I am feeling so ambitious, you and me, flesh to flesh
Because every breath that you will take
while you are sitting next to me
will bring life into my deepest hopes, What's your fantasy?

I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

And I'm tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
x4
( I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)

I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight
( I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)

2007-07-16T23:48:00.000+08:00

16th July 2007... I should say a big FINALLY to see myself sitting in front of my laptop screen with the blogger browser up.A real long time since I last blog, and the reasons are the usual busy.

School life? Honestly speaking, there is almost nothing to say here besides telling you that I went to school almost everyday only till recently when I started to skip lessons. Mainly last week which I skipped Friday and Monday lesson. Meiqi was like saying that I have Monday blues and Holiday mood. Haa~~ smart guess I would say, that was one of the few reasons I had. For last Monday, I was seriously so frustrated and tired that I decided to not go to school for the day which I found out later that it was a wise choice though. For the sinful bad Friday(13th), so tired to go to school thus faking my sickness and sleep my way for the day. Its the 13th of Friday, it might had been a bad day.

Melt camp? Planning stage coming to the end. And I wonder if I had done a good job... But it seems like we are all behind schedule for one week. The meeting today was canceled at the very last minute. Pretty angry when I heard that news as I am in the doubt that my teammates can't make it till the last minute and not directly even. So anyway, that was some rushing hot blood, thus I am cool right now. I am more concern on the plan of the activities that will be running on the camp, the proposal which I need to compile and the clients which I need to settle and approach. I fully aware that this is no one man job, I will take the good initiative and all that I have for this thing as a project head just to run this marvelously for one good time. I failed before, it can be quite demoralizing.Its understandable for me that sometimes we just can't put down our pride to be under a person that have failed before, but I have to emphasize that I don't need anyone to work for me BUT TO WORK with me for a better good. I am aiming right at the camp, to run this well; trust my teammates are with me, I believe they will. I understand that I am already in a situation where I just can't fail this anymore. I am blinded from some facts, or everything is just fine?

Just for the past 3 weeks, I had receive comments and also comparison of my face with others. Personally, I am quite pissed by that.I shall spare the details because its a "everywhere I go thing". Well, I wonder should I blame anyone or should I blame myself. Part of the wonder, have I had really comment someone's bad looking face on a random basis so much so that I had hurt that person; I have to say I have not seen the high frequency in that? Anyway thanks for those who had commented, I understand where I stand and I will never bring my look out as a means to serious market myself to irks the other party off, so EASE!! Next, I don't need any one in this world to tell me how turn off I am in terms of appearance or worse a third party to determine or prove how turn off I am. Lastly, if you would like to comment on me please take a good look at the mirror as well.

Climate changing is for real, world is turning upside down is also too good to be true. You might have heard people saying "APPEARANCE DOESN'T MATTER". Ladies and Gentlemen, I present you that lie of the world. Once I heard from my buddy saying that the society is very particular about how a person look, he says for example a handsome guy with better charisma will tend to get a job in an interview compared to an average man with a good charisma. I thought that was something which is not so true. But soon I see this practical reality of this society. Just recently I went to Giordano for interview, so what happen was I am suppose to give them my particulars. Upon handling up those information, the staff started to look at Nigel, Shawn and me very throughly on our hair and face. Very practical, it seems like they are looking for those who look good to fill the part time slots. So another thing was that, once I walk down my Campus Agora with another friend of mine who had been quite popular among the girls for his look. So we met this lady whom we both know, being polite I said hi but her immediate attention was to my friend beside me. HAA~~ I was like, thanks huh??? I watched 200 pound beauty and there was this particular quote in the movie which says "there are 3 types of women in this world, the beautiful ones who all man will treasure; the average ones are the necessity and the ugly one are rejection." A pretty structured quote to describe women in men eyes. I had did something which I thought was quite stupid of me but it was just for fun. " there are also three type of man in this world, the handsome ones who will always be the topic of admiration, the average one who are all subjected to comparison and the ugly one who will always become the joke for the year." SIGH~~~ Fortunately, this is just the frown side of the society; there is always otherwise. Part of Shaocheng-logy will say: Comment only the good things, reflect on the bad things. To use this on the scenario here it simply says, for those who like to randomly comment on other's appearance please only make a big hu-ha for those who you think looks good, for those who looks bad just keep it to yourself/among friends and make sure it don't leak. For those bad looking or average ones, know where you stand and don't invite idiots that may just demoralize you...

Since I got the time, I shall share a story told by Honsonn about his senior. This man named Donald(correct me if I am wrong) who was a very enthusiastic man and had excellent results. He is a cheerful man, though he likes to irritate others. A few months ago, he was diagnosed of brain tumor. It was a malicious tumor which spreads fast and was endangering his life. But this respectable man knew he will die, but he never gave up and fought with the devil till the end. Unfortunately, god always takes away a good life; he passed away. Honsonn told us this story of his senior in the context of a brother who sort of sell us out and he feels that everyone should have a second chances for the mistakes they made because life is unpredictable.I am agreeable to him, life is indeed unpredictable. Thus I have to learn to treasure and cherish the every moments I have with the people around me... Unpredictable life...

I am done for the day, with more busy and ****-up days coming for the week. So much things to worry, so much things to consider and so much things to think and brainstorm on. As usual I will pray for the goodwill in each day I go through.... zzzzz

Shaocheng-logy (line1)
The world will never try to accept you, but you can try to make the world accept you...

Song of the day:

2007-07-05T14:37:00.000+08:00

05 July 2007, it had been a long time since the last time I blog here. The weeks had not been very good for me.

What will you do if you are frustrated over things around you? What will you do if you fall down? Will you learn to fall. Can you tolerate the injuries and hide the scars after that? Can you stop thinking and imagine about your surroundings for that one minute?

Just lately I am kind of very frustrated nowadays and it had been deteriorating my performance. There is no definite answer to that, just feel frustrated every morning. It seems like any thing around me can frustrate me now. In the morning, when my hair refuse to stand, waiting for the bus, which is always late. When I can't really think about an issue effectively when my brain feel so struck, thus when the other answer to the issue came, I will get glares which seems to be saying"hey, why are you so stupid?". Then generally I will feel stupid. Thought of using violence to solve that, like punching a punch bag; but the problem is I have no punch bag. Thought of singing, but my sister is forever in my room. I don't quite like singing out my anger in front of any body. haiz.. Should stop this frustration soon, if not the message that transmit to my mood everyday is " hey, lets just give up."

2007-06-22T14:38:00.000+08:00

22 June 2007, look back and it had been a long time since I last blogged. Well, you guys are used to it? (haha)

Back from school holidays, pretty bored at home. Thus for most the time, I am out to play sports. Every tuesday and thursday is judo and Friday Basketball. Swimming on wednesday, if not soccer. Anyway, just very happy that my skills for all these sports had improved~~!! Visited Kbox on the last wednesday of the holiday, sung and drunk all the way. errrrrrrrrrrrr kind of forget what else I had done after that HAHA so is the rest of the holiday.

Anyway, there is this girl whom I saw on bus for continuous 2 days. First day, she was sitting diagonally opposite of me and the second day she walk past me while alighting the bus with a surprised smile to me and that was WHEN i started noticing her. HAHA, but anyway I find her quite beautiful and cute. Height is about 160++ with a beautifully tanned body. There is a saying in chinese which says, the first meet is by chance, second meet is concidence, third meet is fate. So I was waiting for myself to see her again for the third time but sadly I didn't see her for the third day else if I might make an effort to know her! HAHA... Something tells me I am just a bus away from her on the third day....Such a puzzle of my heart as her face had been imaging on my mind for the past 3 days already, could this be an infatuated love?Or is it just a spark that cause that small fire which will extinguish one day?

School had been quite a drag for me for the week. Database SQL, JAVA, Networking and IT security and what SO EVER!! Don't really have the mood to do things right or even lead my teammates well to the solution for the day. Well, I had been forcing myself to come to school just to get that few more good results...

Now, I have some problem dealing/handling or even getting use to some people around me. Some just take me as a competitor, omg as if they are worth for me to defeat them. Rubbish.... I shall spare the details, don't wanna invite any revenge oriented spamming on my tagboard =D

Will be going for grading tomorrow, FOR MY YELLOW BELT!! Finally i have the drive for this sport.HAHA...

Shall stop here, i am still in class actually...

2007-06-10T02:49:00.000+08:00

10 June 2007... Look here!! I am the owl again for tonight.....

Kind of bored, BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

That should work.. understand?? bored....

2007-06-09T02:38:00.000+08:00

9th June 2007...

All of a sudden, I thought I am an Owl. Why? I noticed that I have been much more active in the night than in the day. Is this part of mutation?? Most of my ideas for projects and stuff like this are done in the night.What is worse is I am always sleepy in the day. I am done for sure man, having more night life than day life. hmmm, should I join Police Force than since I am so active in the night, for then I will be the reason why Singapore sleep well in the night. WAHAHA...

Holidays had been trainings ,some games and guitar. Judo's grading had been postponed to next saturday. Had continuous physical excercise for the past 3 days and I admit that I had not been excercising for a long time. Stamina and strength had all deteriorated. Speaking of grading, I had not even really practise on the throws and ground work.. hmm I am so going to take that 5th Kyu(yellow belt). HAHA, quite slow in grading because the federation is alway slow further more I missed 2 gradings already. Pathetic huh?? Had been crazy about Need For Speed and also Blitzreig. Games are always boring to some, so I guess I shall not share the details. Guitar? hmm what is there to share beside the melodies and rhythm of it?

There is this one extra thing I am doing currently, and that is designing my own blogskin!! hahaha.. I had been trying since the start of the holiday, thus if this is successful more skins will come from me!! If I had really have the capablities then I might go into even more advance development. haha..

Shall stop here, a few days more I will be going to K box again... Seriously I had not sang for a long time, I am quite dissappointed with my deteriorated vocal the last time I went with my classmates.. hmm, back to some more vocal training!! wahaha.

2007-06-03T03:11:00.000+08:00

3rd June 2007, finally june and here I am in the middle of the night? Ok fine, morning.... Don't really have the urge to turn in to the bed, thus stay up for movies; games and blog of course.

Finally, this thing which we call holiday descend to my life. So like an angel in my life... Cut the crap, I am going to enjoy this 2 weeks long holiday. Whats up for this holiday?? Into some planning for the external project, it will better work this time. Putting my time in Guitar as well, Don advice to hold my perseverence and patiences for this instrument. Just loud and clear here, I WILL!! There will be more things which I will be doing for this holiday... Anyway, my results for the term ends...

Well, quite satisfied with the results but of course what I want is stll pretty far. When I used to think that good results doesn't mean that I will be sucessful, but not really so now; I had to accept the fact that I am living in this world where that piece of paper and recognition is so much important. Just doing myself a favour=)

For the last day of my school, I had JAVA lesson. Touching on Object Oriented Programming. Till now, I still can't get the codes done.. wahaha.. FOR THE FIRST TIME I FAILED A PROGRAM!!GOD DAMN IT!! Its ok, human make mistakes and I truely understands it...

As usual for friday, there is this standard; N~Zire Meeting. I read Xiao Fei Xiang's blog, and gave some thoughts to it. Had everyone changed? or had everyone matured. What caused it? Happy or sad? We have a important person handling his 3Ps, we have competitivness in a casual Basketball Match. Fortunately we have smiles and laughter occasionally. Is it a stage of maturity when guys became serious in things they do, play hard work hard? Or was it something else bad enough to happen?? Well, I have no exact answer to all this questions but just hope that all the good brothers will not just disband like this. Remember the craps, remember the soccer teams we trashed, remember the songs that rock others....

Well, I too had changed.. I am pretty sure about it =) The way I dress, changed. The way I think changed... My perspective changed... What else? There is this something which I lose, after one year in RP. Remember there was once this facilitator of mine during my year one semester one class told me that I have the verbal power to convince and to inspire. Well, I lose that confidence and that drive to be a good presenter at a time when I don't even know it. I find myself stumbling more and more... Just recently I felt that confidence and drive coming back, is it that the devil had been moved away from me?? I really hope so... I don't want to lose my faith and confidence again..

hmm,well I am done for the day.. er.. ok morning... Before my mother steps in and yell at me, i shall turn in to the bed for my own good...

2007-05-30T23:00:00.000+08:00

30th May 2007, opps I broke my promise on the last entry.. Kind of forget to continue the last entry..haha.

It had been a very long week after my birthday... Finally I submitted my professional profiling proposal to the school. hmmm, I will be doing a profile for Retail Industry. For alot of RP students, this choice seems to be a sucide. But I am ready to take this... Industry is definately a very big thing to analyse and so, I took the advice of scoping my profile all the way down to the sectors of the industry...So thus, I will be looking into the competitive environment in department stores and E-commerce, which from there I will recommend new entrants on the competitive measures. Well there are 2 reasons why I did not choose to profile a company...
1. I have no company in mind...
2. I want to learn more about the industry I am interested of...
Yah, and that is the two main reason why I choose that.
Academically, I also hope that my profile will help me somehow since I had been hoping to field into Retail and hospitality next year. Knowing how retail industry process, I will be able to quickly understand the applications used in that industry. I guess I shall not talk so much about it, lets just wait till it is being approved.

There is this thing which I am personally happy about. I had got my first A in the UT-_-''' there is only one test so far that is being graded. But A will be driving force for more of such 'A's in the future... PUSH FOREVER!!

I guess I shall stop here..there are plenty for me to do now...

Again.. out of boredom, I did these

Mermaid 'cbo', am I that beautiful? haha...

You Are a Mermaid

You are a total daydreamer, and people tend to think you're flakier than you actually are.
While your head is often in the clouds, you'll always come back to earth to help someone in need.
Beyond being a caring person, you are also very intelligent and rational.
You understand the connections of the universe better than almost anyone else.

What Mythological Creature Are You?

wahaha , this one is cool.. I always thought I am either an owl or a hawk... this test comfirms.

Your Power Bird is an Owl

You are beyond wise. You are so smart, you're almost prophetic.
Your inner voice always speaks the truth, and you take the time to listen to it.
You are good at seeing who people are... including the darkness of others.
As a result, you tend to have a rather dark - yet realistic - outlook on life.

What's Your Power Bird?

hmmm...

What Your Favorite Color Blue Says About You:

Emotional --- Affected --- Sensitive
Peaceful --- Tranquil --- Connected
Spiritual --- Experimental --- Deep

What Does Your Favorite Color Say About You?

exactly my physical blood type..

Your Inner Blood Type is Type B

You follow your own rules in life, even if you change the rules every day.
Sure, you tend to be off the wall and unpredictable, but that's what makes you lovable.
And even though you're a wild child, you have the tools to be a great success.
You are able to concentrate intently - and make the impossible possible.

You are most compatible with: B and AB

Famous Type B's: Leonardo Di Caprio and

What's Your Inner Blood Type?

yeah.. i feel it too..

You Are 78% Perfectionist

You are a true perfectionist. You are both demanding of yourself and others.
While it's great to have goals and standards, they don't need to be sky high!

Are You a Perfectionist?

Your Inner Color is Blue

Your Personality: Your natural warmth and intuition nurtures those around you. You are accepting and always follow your heart.

You in Love: Relationships are your top priority, and this includes love. You are most happy when you are serious with someone.

Your Career: You need to help others in your job to feel satistifed. You would be a great nurse, psychologist, or counselor.

What's Your Inner Color?

Quite true...

What Your Hands Say About You

You are logical, analytical, and rational. You have good verbal skills.

Flexible and broad minded, you can fit in to any situation. There's no telling where your life will take you.

Practical and down to earth, you're a doer not a dreamer. You rather get something done than think about it all day.

Your emotions tend to be nervous and potent. Your energy - both positive and negative - deeply impacts your life.

What Do Your Hands Say About You?

Do you guys???

People Envy Your Confidence

You have the attitude and self esteem to take on anything. Failure is beyond not an option for you - it doesn't even cross your mind.
People envy your ability to take on any challenge ... and they're secretly afraid you think you're better than them. You don't. You're just sure of yourself.

What Do People Envy About You?

2007-05-28T18:46:00.000+08:00

28th May 2007, just back from school.. A Showcase of what I had done during the bored and tired third meeting...

Your Life is Rated PG-13

Your life isn't totally scandalous, but you definitely don't shy away from adult themes!

What is Your Life Rated?

You are a PC

You're practical, thrifty, and able to do almost anything.
Appearances and trends aren't important to you. You just like to get the job done.

Are You a Mac or a PC?

You Follow Your Heart

You're romantic, sentimental, and emotional.
You tend to fall in (and out of) love very quickly.
Some may call you fickle, but you can't help where your emotions take you.
You've definitely broken a few hearts, but you're not a heartbreaker by nature.
Your intentions are always good, even if they change with the wind

Do You Follow Your Head or Your Heart?

Taurus - Your Love Profile

Your positive traits:

You tend to stick with relationships - through the good and the bad.
You are a great listener and tend to give valuable advice.
Cautious and careful, you never jump in recklessly... saving yourself from heartbreak.

Your negative traits:

Money is very important to you, so much so that it's a cause of arguments in relationships.
If your lover isn't loyal or attentive enough to you, your eyes start to wander...
You tend to keep things inside - so your partner may not know when or why you're upset.

Your ideal partner:

Is stable, serious, and ready to be committed to you.
Is successful and able to provide you with the lifestyle you crave.
A true romantic, who is willing to express their desire for your heart.

Your dating style:

Comfortable and traditional. You'd love to have a nice meal at a cozy restaurant.

Your seduction style:

Love comes first for you before you'd even think of intimacy.
Traditional: you're not a cold fish - but you're not into kink either.
Pleasing... you always make sure that your partner is having a good time.

Tips for the future:

Be willing to change your mind. Who you think is the love of your life may be very wrong for you.
Try listening to your mate. While your stubborn streak is hard to break, sometimes your partner knows best.
Lighten up! The first months of a relationship should be about fun, not intentions.

Best color to attract mate: Pale blue

Best day for a date: Friday

What's Your Love Profile?

You Are Incredibly Logical

Move over Spock - you're the new master of logic
You think rationally, clearly, and quickly.
A seasoned problem solver, your mind is like a computer!

How Logical Are You?

Your Values Profile

Loyalty:

You value loyalty a fair amount.
You're loyal to your friends... to a point.
But if they cross you, you will reconsider your loyalties.
Staying true to others is important to you, but you also stay true to yourself.

Honesty:

You value honesty a fair amount.
You're honest when you can be, but you aren't a stickler for it.
If a little white lie will make a situation more comfortable, you'll go for it.
In the end, you mostly care about "situational integrity."

Generosity:

You don't really value generosity.
Your needs always come first, no matter what.
And you'll possibly help someone else out...
But only if it helps you in return.

Humility:

You value humility highly.
You have the self-confidence to be happy with who you are.
And you don't need to seek praise to make yourself feel better.
You're very modest, and you're keep the drama factor low.

Tolerance:

You value tolerance a fair amount.
You are open to new cultures, beliefs, and ideas.
You have very few prejudices that you're aware of.
And while you are tolerant, you do stand true to what you believe.

The Five Factor Values Test

Slow and Steady

Your friends see you as painstaking and fussy.

They see you as very cautious, extremely careful, a slow and steady plodder.

It'd really surprise them if you ever did something impulsively or on the spur of the moment.

They expect you to examine everything carefully from every angle and then usually decide against it.

How Do People See You?

You Should Drive a Blue Car

You're the type of driver who isn't hung up on the what car you drive.
You don't need a flashy car to show off your wealth or style.
Instead, you go for value and reliability. You're quite practical.
You're a great driver, but you don't show off. Part of your skill is not standing out on the road.

What Color Car Should You Drive?

My actual post will come after this....

2007-05-21T22:56:00.000+08:00

21st May 2007, monday blues?? No such things for today =D Hope everyone will forgive me for the late entry, had been quite lazy at the same time busy for the past week. I seeing more of such trends coming up soon due to the tight schedule I had, so guess the entry today will be a novel like one =D. What's new today,had IT security module for today thus as promised I will put some encrypted information here, happy decoding what I want to say...

19th May 2007, how can I ever forget such an important date to myself. They say a person who forget his birthday is a person who had forgotten himself. Looks like I haven't forget my own existance in this world. Anyway 3 major group of people I must really give a big thank you.

To W66D(all my classmates): Thanks guys for the pre-celebration for me in the class, your cakes and wishes really surprise me to being speechless... Really appreciate what you guys had done that day, will love this class more than ever =)

To N~ZiRe: Hey thanks, my secondary school buddies for the celebration over at East Coast Park. I will not forget the moment when I am under the sea... Last but not least, thanks for the guitar =) it really facilitate me in learning this instrument which I always want =D lets see if I got the chance to play in our chalet

To all those who wished me: Belated, early or just in time; can't really name everyone out as there is too many of you. But those little wish and greetings really brighten up my birthday till the max... Thanks everyone =D

That was my birthday, just another day but differentiated by fun... While of course there are some wishes and milestones for the matured 18 =)

wishes:
1- To stay happy with alot of friends and buddies around me
2- To fulfill my desires and help others achieve theirs too
3- Decrpyt this set of code, and there be my wish
Key: ZSTKJSPLOWOPQETHRI

third wish:
TNHNENPXEDSIXXFSHJTX
NPTDDITSPXYKBTLXIXXD
AYAASRJOOOOOOCBCNGNOE
IMIXZMOSSWNOAUEONDGA
AIXATEDTHAYGREIGUSJ
MJFIMECRRRXLKXTXXAH
(happy decoding=), I will reveal my wish when i feel the time is ripe)

The wants:
- Complete my Professional Profilling with absolute satisfactory
- Maintain or improve my overall G.P.A
- Complete and master Guitar
- Get a job
- Take a Car liencse

That is all for my birthday, just simple encrypted message to a band of friends?:
IIAORDARAEEOIS SXRTHNSOSWEFEH AYBHOOSNAWKFNI SEREOTTGFESRDP

21st January 2007, a energentic today.... Nothing much but just school and encrytion and decrpytion...

thought of the day: To be successful, we need not create an environment where we eliminate those who are weaker than us. To impress others that you are good is totally different from proving to others you are good.

2007-05-14T23:26:00.000+08:00

14th May 2007, monday blues monday blues and more blues to come. This illness is really really affecting my performance today.

On this blue monday, I had IT security and management where we are studying on the various access controls. There are Mandatory Access Control, Discrepancy Access Control and Role Based Access control. All access control methods had their different kinds of characteristics and function to suit different types of business. Anyway, kind of switched off for today... Reasons?? Tired was one of the reason, another one was that I am all the way thinking of Business Climate project... The melt camp, how am I going to organize and so on... Just afraid how my team-members will react to my leadership and stuff like this... Thus for this, the presentation I had was really really bad. Got shot down terriblily, but kind of used to it; so lets just take it as a learning experience like preached by PBL.

Thought of the day: To forget about yesterday and to move on to tomorrow.... I had lose my courage, my determination to be a leader, yet yielding to be a great one one day.

2007-05-12T23:43:00.000+08:00

12th May 2007, I skipped N~Zire's basketball session and attended the Welcome Camp of Business Climate where we welcome our new members. A little disappointed by the turn outs, 47 registered, 12 confirmed, 6 turned out. But after all it is expected since we are a business oriented interest group.

Anyway, the day was fun; enjoyed crapping with some new members who are year 2s actually. HAHA, mainly Micheal, Wei Quan and Meiqi. The craps are really crap, and fills the whole day; ranging from facilitator jokes to the lammest thing "singing lao shi zao". A great or bad news to announce, the W66D Tank Fever had been spreaded to Business Climate by 40%. hmmm...

Business Climate, SLA was over and I am back to my core project which I was dumped with. This time round, i am not going to do it like what I did last year. Waiting for guidelines? why not set my own~~ I am so going to make this project of mine to be the greatest achievement in my Republic life, together with my team members. Got to start cracking soon.

Business totally about money? So is it valid to say that those with money-sense will be very good in business? Partially true, Business is about money, but not all... Business could be a social science of managing people and resource, it could be an art of socializing and networking. Some people took business as their fields or join business because they enjoy the very sense of money making. No blames on them, money do serve a motivator for most to work but for now I chose Business out of passion. The interest in negotiating, socializing and having vast networks plus the sense of fulfillment and challenges ahead drives me all the way into the Business field. Indeed, passion drove me this far... I seen the rise and fall of my momentum in terms of passion, sometimes I let that passion to drive me all the way, sometimes I just forget and crumble my way. Haiz.. why am I so concious and reflective?? And why I am never sastified by myself?

Forget of all the sighing and moaning, in one weeks time I will be matured 18~~!!! hurray, that is a good news to me because that shows that I am grown up!! Bad news is, more responsiblities and expectation is coming in my way....

2007-05-09T23:46:00.000+08:00

9th May 2007, WHAT A HOT DAY!!! Global warning is happening at a very fast rate i guess, nowadays the weather is hot enough to make you frustrate over your sweat.

2007-05-09T00:59:00.000+08:00

9th May 2007, just 50 minutes into this very new day... Finished my RJ so decided to finally drop by an entry.

Just recently, I am addicted to this new game. Considered my favourite game in my entire life, NEED FOR SPEED CARBON... I completed the earlier version of this and now this version is an continuous from the previous one. Very fun and the graphics was cool. Now you guys know that I love cars and I love the drifting of those machine as well. The sharp cornerings, overcomed by a graceful drift. Nothing can be nicer than that I guess. HAHA.. As I type in this entry, I can literally feel the drift from the game~~ Well?? understand my joy ?? =D Anyway, gonna thanks my friend Steward for this game. Had been hunting for quite a long time.

Yeah man, its gonna be a off day tomorrow~~!! Off but no break -_-''' haiz.. I have to do revision and read up on PP... lol...

2007-05-06T23:24:00.000+08:00

6th May 2007, beautiful sunday with a very indecisive mind. Suppose to go jogging together with my brother, but was seriously so tired and jelly that I call it off.A temporary new blogskin while I brainstorm for a design for my personal blogskin.Now, you better be prepared, cause it is going to be a long entry today...

Now, will May be a good month for me?? That really questions, but what doesn't is that May will be a birthday month for most taurians. Some fact files about Taurus...
Taurus, in latin means Bull. This White Bull in mythlogy was said to be sent by Zeus to bring Helena to him. In simple words, Taurus is a messenger of Zeus.
According to myth, Taurus was actually later being killed by Hecules or was it Orion the Great hunter?(P/M: sorry can't remember who killed that bull) . We won't get to see Taurus in a dark clear sky in Singapore today since the sun is in the direction of that constellation, but Taurus is a best known winter constellation thus you might get a chance to see this horoscope over your sky around Novemeber to January? (That's what I want to see anyway) So far, I had get to see Virgo, Cancer and part of Orion over the night skies.

It was believe Taurians are patient yet hot tempered, hardworking, calm and practical. I guess it somehow true to me at times, which makes me a real taurian!! (haha)Anyway I have some cadets from SJAB commenting that I look like a bull when I am angry with that red face and heavy breaths~~ (laughz).

Well, besides the craps up there; I am suppose to tell you guys a miracle today. Just before this entry I was complaining that I just couldn't get an A for Java. Take a look at the screen shot below and understand my shock~!
Anyway, C108 is the module which I do Java, see that problem 3-A. Exactly the problem I did after I complain.. HAHA what a irony... It is seriously a shock for me but explosion of happiness, since it is the first A that I got for that module. Well just for your information, I won't stop here and will be still working hard for more of it. What's sad is, my monday blues cost me the first B in C121, haiz... But I will work hard alright, for I am a great student!! the test below will varify that(heex)

You Are a Great Student

You aren't afraid to crack the books when you need to, and you make your education a true priority.
You could become a PhD in anything, if you set your mind to it. There's no limit to what you can learn!

Are You a Good Student?

Anyway, I did a questionaire which test how mature I am emotionally...( er.. Just ignore the picture on the result slip, I don't look like that definately ....)

You Are 74% Grown Up, 26% Kid

Congratulations, you are definitely quite emotionally mature.
Although you have your moments of moodiness, you're usually stable and level headed.

How Emotionally Mature Are You?

Well, just the questionaire which I kill my boredom at home as I slack.... Whether it is true or not, up to you to decide =)

Continuing with the entry, for last friday... It was JR birthday!!! Don't have his personal pics, so guess will not post his pics here. Had dinner at pastamania and a small cake cutting session over at saffra. Then we had a dat game which I won with a perfect game points(eyes like an eagle) before a bowlling session which I keep lame-ing haha.. That's all for that day I believe...

For tomorrow, it will be somehow just another week of studying in school.... Really have to discipline myself to go further. Can't afford to slow down or even stop now, it is a rough journey ahead... Lots to accomplish...

2007-05-02T21:36:00.000+08:00

2nd May 2007, the fifth month of the year and into my birthday month....

Apologies for the missing in action from this blog, guess just alittle busy with some activities. Shall not bore this blog with the full details of what I had done for the past week...

Yesterday, went out with Honsonn, Anita, Nigel, Si yang and Derrick to the goddess of mercy's temple at bugis. It is a special trip back to return the favour, as during the time when Honsonn, Shawn and Jing Ren were facing some problems over at HK. Before that, was a long waiting for the love birds to appear(those who are there will understand what I say). After the temple, all of us headed to Sim Lim Square where Honsonn found his Motherboard while I am still searching for an external hard drive for my laptop. Had dinner at Bedok block 85, happy time waiting for 'Ba Chor Mee' and the rest of the feast which includes, 'auo jian' and 'satays'. All in all, I reach home with a very bloated stomach. That ends Labour day and after which I stay home to revise Database for the upcoming UT, can't believe isn't it?=D

The faithful today, a number of Diploma in Business Application students went to visit one of the manufacturing factory in Singapore. Situated around the west side of Singapore, sits one of the top branded bread; Gardenia. I am pretty fascinated by the process of bread making in the factory when I visited them. Using of IT to do quality checks and so on. This trip was actually intended for our senior who take manufacturing and logistic module, but I put my leg in since that is the module I want to take for my core specialization. Another module under that catergory is Hosipitailty and Retail. Out of all these, I still have to study hard for my year 2...

Tomorrow, will be happily Java-ing... Hope that I will get an A tomorrow, because I had been getting B for this module. And I just don't know why??? hmm...

2007-04-26T23:21:00.000+08:00

26th April 2007...

Brain is getting rusty,
Body is getting lazy
But a mind that is forever going
Its time to do something
Before I turn to be nothing...

Back from Judo and just finished my Reflection Journal for the day. It had been a busy week; a flash of thousand things and here I am... A week after the last entry.

I am getting alittle bored with my blogskin nowadays, guess it is pretty a good time to change one. But this time round I am thinking of making it uniquely mine. With my programming skills with html, I should be able to create my own blogskin. Hmmm, but do I have the time??? Will soon be engaged into Professional Profilling, god knows how I am going to do it... Just afraid that I will be struggling in my year 2, thus I am taking the initiative to read up more on my modules to prepare for the next lesson. Judo!! getting so jelly during trainings, literally I can't feel my body!! So much to make myself something, which means time... Guess lets pioritizes!!! ( I shall replace the old blogskin with a new one soon)

Finally, I get a breather nowaday for a tired mind and restless soul to ease himself... SLA is over!! The project that had been a heart poundering one to me for 3 months. The result was so fine, but with some last minute of changes to the marketing plan which I prepared 3 months ago. Now all I can hope is, the EXCO do what I proposed for BC; since I believe it is the way to keep members around. 3 things up in my head for BC, I shall draw the curtain from here. =p

It is truely thousands that flash by, and I guess millions are on its way but there is no point guessing what will come next, but to prepare for what that might drop by. Got to go, IT security and management for tomorrow... It better be good ;D

thought of the day: Perfect, is it? Faithful, will they? Trustworthy, are they? murmurs around to kill, but shall not listen till its true...

2007-04-19T08:27:00.000+08:00

19 April 2007, back to school!! Yesterday was a off, honestly speaking I am so not use to it... Just a day off, I thought I am in holiday =D

Get to the class early today, in fact very early! I was the first student in the class today, hail to my achievement!! The credit goes to bus service 168 which happen to be very punctual today. Frown at my results of JAVA, a B I had got. hmmm will my biggest concern for year 2 ever happen?? Hope it will not =)

Back to work....

2007-04-18T00:52:00.000+08:00

17 April 2007, I will smile slightly for the new school semester. First is for the new classmates whom I had just met, a group of quite powerful IT students(though mostly girls). Second is for Republich Polytechnic which finally looks and sense like a polytechnic.

First day of school was quite a bad luck for me as I almost get myself late. Suppose to meet Wei Quan and other friends from SIT camp, but I was seriously late. The culprit of couse is not myself but the bus. No kidding, I missed 4 buses during the first day of school; all so fully packed. I waited at the bus stop at 0655 but got my first bus at around 0730 and reached woodlands at 0830 due to a heavy traffic jam. But its ok, since the bus company did something to deal with such situations and the it is somehow better today. When I reach the school together with Alvin; we saw a sight that had never been seen in RP before, a very crowded path along RPC; so crowded that you can hardly see the tiles on the floor. Agora is getting even more crowded for the first day and the whole campus finally came alive!!

First lesson yesterday was networking, did something very interesting. Setting up a communication system in 1821 on a deserted island. My team created a sound communication system using sound encrytions to communicate simple basic messages such as " I need water". The results were quite sucessful, just a little misinterpretation which happen during the communication. Second lesson, which is today; I did something which had been a wonder for me; JAVA programming. Did VB programming before, thus found JAVA somehow even more troublesome than VB. For VB I could simply start a class, get the codes in and end the class. For JAVA, I have to end every single line of codes with a colon(;) when a colon is missing, the whole program will fail. LOL!!! so challenging. But the increasing interest in IT will get me further for the next 2 years =)

Back to the dull topic which my readers had complained. Business Climate -_-''' SLA reaching its final preparation, the plan are understood and will be implementing it soon. All a sudden, the world went into a fast forward; and I will be happily busying for this event for the next week and the whole of this week. Alittle drained here =D

Last but not least, N~ZiRe's Tai zi; Ren Zhe and JR had safely reached home yesterday from Hong Kong, a celebration for the three of them will be on its way =)

Kind of tired now, words just run out of my mind and spill on this entry. Got to go for a sleep and wake up early tomorrow (despite the fact that its my off day tomorrow), to prepare the details of the SLA for the members and head to Chinatown to get the sticker printing if I can get the budget and design tomorrow. BUSYING!!!

thought of the day: my ideas is facing a heavy traffic jam on the highway of the great mind.

2007-04-15T22:31:00.000+08:00

15th April 2007, to celebrate or to frown for a new school semester tomorrow?? Nothing much today...

Bought a pair of shoe today, not really of my liking actually. It is a pair of black puma, with a white and gold stripe across one side.Thought of taking a white version, but the vendor told me that there is no white version for this. This shoe cost me $50.15 which is cheaper than my previous Nike by $9.

Comments??? Actually it is still presentable, so I will live with it... Just came to notice that, I have worn quite a number of branded sporting shoes. I have a Nike totalssium(which is 1 and 1/2 years old and is about to go); Addidas soccer boots(4 years old); Lotto( lost) and now I have Puma, guess the next brand I will go is Umbro or Fila. Anyway I am going to purchase another street soccer shoe; considering taking umbro or back to Lotto.. hmmm??

So the other 3 heavenly kings are having some fun in Hong Kong, which I am personally happy for them. Despite the problems they had faced there, guess this is a well good experience for them. Maybe the next taiwan trip will be a safer one =) They will be back tomorrow night, with my jacket!! =p haha... Will be planning a welcome dinner for them as well.

Alright, guess got to stop here, but not to bore the reader of this pathetic blog, here are some photos before. Enjoy =)

Da shui Zhang; hmmm, change it to dilect please.. =D

East coast sun rise, a beautiful scene?? just minus the litters =p

This is nice....

So like Ellysium...

No comments...

Beautiful sea... clouds covering the sky

The tide so high la!!

That is so creative.. . Spiral Staircase... I love it..

er.... Nice butt .... -_-'''

That will be the end of my blog for today, stay tune for more updates!! Hopefully as cheerful as this blog entry today =D

Thought of the day:
Others look down you, and if you look down yourself as well.. then you are really down
- Prophet Shao =p

2007-04-12T01:58:00.000+08:00

12 April 2007...

Songs from a lonely soul
The blues of the strings of words
Tears from that weary eyes
The pain to live in a cruel world
Scars from that last fight
The reluctance to fight the next war
The mask had been torn
So please never again let it be on.

7th to 11th April 2007, I was in the school attending the Cypher Camp 2007 as a student leader. Despite the cockups I faced, it is considered a well enough camp. My team was Vista, the most hyper team. It could be the reason that they are very active during the waiting on hold for the RP break game. That was when they had finally generated the cheer.Our Alliance think thing was a fun case, they had very enthusiatic and funny people there like Nicklaus and the banana man. I personally believe that they have the qualities of a good team I desire, but nevertheless Vista possessed some of them. Finally got a taste on how club could had look like, low lights and loud music. Swear!! I will go to club once I turn 18!! For that 2 night over at the camp, i had never had a good sleep. Went into a one day coma after returning back home haha!! Anyway, just to tell you guys, I met a very chio girl in my group. Guess what?? She was bornt on the same day, same month and same year as me!! WHAT A CONCIDENCE!!

After the long coma,went out to meet the long time no see N~Zire. This is sort of the last dinner before the three out of the four heavenly kings go for their tour in Hong Kong. Hmmm... maybe Honsonn is right, I should be the one to feel lack of sense of belonging. I truely had feel it strongly nowadays, no reasons but it just feel this way... Hong Kong trip.... haiz.. how I wish I could join them.

Sometimes, it can't help to be so envious of your own siblings. My parents look more upon my younger brother. But I can't blame them, my brother had trophies after trophies for competions he went. He had now 3 trophies while I had only one medal from the last sports day. Though my own brother look upon me, but I still feel that he will do far better than me... Since young, it had been this way; no attention for me; no sense of fulfillment; no luck; no nothing.... Life I led is a considered a miserable one, thus now I wonder how can I make it interesting?? Childish isn't it, am I? But I don't really care about those now, just get on with what I want; but just sad that it had always been obstructed.

I stayed in this small island for 18years, everytime yielding to get out to play and see the world. When young, I wonder how it looks like to be out of Singapore touring in other country. To see the whole world, and know it. Thus that was when I had a dream to be a pilot when I grow up, childhood dream it was; to see the world in the plane I fly. But sad, I was inherited to have slight
astigmatism. Thus had this dream off since secondary school. But I still have the hope to see the world... Thought my parents will support me, but looks like they never will... Over concern to kill me, money to strangle me... haiz...But I can't blame them, because of our family background and I understand...

A matured man will understand why is life is down, and I understand why.... But sometimes, chances just don't come as it likes. But people around kills me just as if they like. But I will never give up, for the future of me and for the sake of myself... Because if I don't help myself; no one will...

Thought of the day:sometimes, we really have to stop and take a look around...

2007-04-06T14:09:00.000+08:00

06 April 2007, just awake to find the sun above me so high...

The reason is simple, I was preparing the SLA neccessary things late in the night yesterday. Finished designing the flyers. Calculated the maximum expense of the event and is ready to send for vetting. Now what I am left with is the banner design and 2 of the poster designs which will be done by the exco team members. Its pretty ironic to see so many things done already and it look as if we are ready for the recruitment event, but some how deep in me I feel that we are still lacking of the X-factor to get potential year ones to join us... Currently the major concern I have here is not about the printing, not about the booth location or anything related to marketing, but human resource is the big thing... Wondering what can I do to let a group of ignorant BC members (who's only interest is the rich points the IG provide) to have more enthusiasium in this event??

Will be off to play soccer with N~Zire later... Will not be back till next tuesday since I will be in camp.

Thought of the day: Seriously hoping for the very best in the next few big things I do....

2007-04-03T21:28:00.000+08:00

03 April 2007...

When hatred kills love
When no one is down to earth
When the streets are cold
When Friends became Foes
When everyone close their doors
When slience is an adore
When the mood is down
When my world turns around

For the day, I was thinking what will happen if one day I am not what I am... What will happen if one day when everyone shut their doors from me and etc. Not for any real reasons, just a penny of my thoughts. For life now I have what I'm blessed, buddies and family; friends still pass by and say hi; then they say bye. The urge to know more friends is still there, but just afraid I might close that door again...

For the faithful today, I can't attend the second dry run of Cypher camp as I am having a SLA meeting today. Plan was quite smooth as I watch the exco team nod their heads to my plan, but here I am forseeing and fearing the possiblities of cock ups. Yesterday was a dry run of the camp, get to know more people like, Evon, Wei Quan and Shirley who will be my partner in the camp, not forgeting people who I happen to work and play with again, Alvin and Li Jing.Things are well, but still I am here hoping the best in the camp. I also had missed out the fun N~ZiRe had yesterday at Sentosa,(haa) clashing streak is back again... When Usual Routine is not the mulitples of your important things...

Ren Zhe told me that my blog is always revolving two things, Business and Judo; nothing else... HAHA... that is why my blog is black, suppose to be dull... Will try to brighten my blog one day...
Thoughts:Sometimes i just can't stop thinking, my brain is 24-hours functional

2007-03-31T00:50:00.000+08:00

31 march 2007... Last day of dear march, coming next is fool april. Here is a early entry for beautiful saturday, just reach home from N~Zire meeting.

Once a man with achievements, with wits,determination and support to arm him to sucess. Look at him now, much like a defeated man. The consequences of falling down is being forgotten and back to square one, the journey of falling down and getting up is such a shameful and painful one. Failure had cast a shadow on him, he lost his wits and spirit; no more support. A wandering soul he is, sitting in his own shadow trying to mend his dream. Cruel world he lived in, passer-bys are everywhere but no one reach a hand for him. No one wants to help him, because no one wants him to be strong again. Others pitied his pathetic state,doubt his ability. He want to mend his dream and take it to the peak, but he is overwhelmed by the fear in him. He is afraid that he can't bear the next failure. But he knew it himself, no matter how cruel this world is; there will be someone who are willing to support him and give him the confidence he need. For those people, he will defeat his devils to bring his dream to peak and also for the long lost feeling of being cherished and to cherish. Because a failure today is for him to cherish his sucess tomorrow. And that man, shall be me....

2007-03-30T16:24:00.000+08:00

30 March 2007, once again I am reaching the end of another month. The sun is on the direction of the constellation Aries this month... Nothing much to do for the day, just came back from a swim with Taizi at the swimming complex.

Facts on Aries:
Aries is often associated with the Greek myth of the ram which carried Athamas's son Phrixus and daughter Helle to Colchis to escape their stepmother Ino. Individuals born under this sign are thought to have a confident, aggressive, energetic, active, adventurous, enthusiastic, fair, passionate, and pioneering character but one which is also prone to selfishness, boastfulness, intolerance, impulsiveness, and impatience.
(Information taken from www.wikipedia.org)

I was reading the web, which wrote there for taurus, as a sign which is sexually responsive... the opposite sign of taurus is scorpio which is also sexually responsive.. So I wonder, is taurus sexually responsive to scorpio and vice versa (heex)

Just alittle curious on the various myth of the zodiacs.. So it is perfectly fine to find me sitting infront of my laptop doing research on this during my free time...

Alright I guess I will stop here and prepare to go out again.. haha...

2007-03-25T22:41:00.000+08:00

25 March 2007, came back from IVP for judo. Lose my match, at the very last minute. Haiz.. its a story of a judo ka who tries to minimize the pain of his injured opponent but got pinned in the end.

Very tired. So I will have a short blog here... will come back for a longer one...

P/M:
Kelvin- Hey my fellow judo-ka, yellow belt senior... Take good care of yourself... A good fighter needs to have a good rest, for a better fight the next day..

2007-03-21T21:32:00.000+08:00

21st March 2007, spend my day at East Coast Park with Business Climate members. A very small number of people, merely only the exco commitee was there; I am the only member anyway. Negotiation failed,(haaz) since when will it be sucessful.

I am going to cypher camp as Asst. group leader!! That was what I promise I will be when I was still a freshmen, to be a group leader though it is a grade down to be a Assistant leader; but I guess it will just be fine. Initially I was not suppose to be part of the leaders since I missed the interview. Edmund requested for me to join since they are suffering a manpower shortage. I am partially excited about the camp. For the leaders I am going to meet and for the long lost feeling of being a camp instructor. Somehow as I browse the group leader list, I spot one or two people whom I know will set up barricades on my way. Honestly speaking, I am still in the dark of what have I done wrong for them to treat me like enemy. I tried to make friends with them, I give a pat on their shoulder, I shook hands with them, I cheered with them then when I was a camper. It could be their arrogance and the way they look down others, but what I know is I will put up my professionalism up and not to avoid them. Just doubting that they will do the same and create a leadership war in the camp(which I personally hate). I want to work with a group of keen leaders and thus then I will cherish the moments not like the take it and forget it attitude I had in the past. Lets hope for the goods in the camp.

Judo competition, guess I will lose this good opportunity to shine again. A very small inter-tertiary competition, but will really give a edge on what is call sportsmanship. Sporty person like me, bound to traditional surrounding which bars me to advance. Parental disapproval is what I am facing now. Indemnity form, chinese(shen shi zhuang) is signed in all martial art competition stating that the competitor is taking part in the competition at his/her own will and will not liase their death or injury to the organiser's responsibility. Now that is the problem, my parents doesn't want me to take the risk. I am just a yellow-tip white belter; what accident can cause my death unless I didn't take care of myself? That is the nice things my parents put it up to tell me that they don't want me to risk, the sad thing is they don't trust their son to do well. I tried to explain and assured them, just to laugh at myself for being a fool once again. Ya! why must I try?? It totally makes me look like a son who can't bring glory and pride to his own family. Tired, I really had tried to make my parents feel proud of me and trust me; perhaps I have just failed under the curse of the Seah Family.

Sometimes I will realize that actually I am not at all sucessful in my leadership path after all. But I choose to believe that I can be a leader and lead my followers to heights. Perhaps I was once sucessful but later I suffer. Sometimes the consequences of falling down is being forgotten once and for all and it is always "back to square one". The journey of me climbing back to the max, gaining back the things I desire, have a bulleyes on my targetboard; will be a tough one... Shall abid to the quote: tough times will end, tough man won't...

Thought of the day: When you fall down, Just try again.... Can it be done??

2007-03-21T00:16:00.001+08:00

20th March 2007, a day in Republic Polytechnic Sports Hall Martial Art room preparing for IVP and training myself for IVP. Spend the end of my outdoor activites at SJAB in Junyuan Secondary School, teaching the secondary 1 students CPR (honestly its a real challenge).

First thing first, talk about the competition. Judo is an offensive Japanese martial Art. It was originated from Jujitsu in Japan. Guess what, I am selected to go represent RP in the coming IVP. But however, the sad thing is my parents will not be allowing me to join this competition. Because they say, I am their first son, so I should not risk my life or any part of my body unnecessarily.But I know why is it so, not because I am weak but because I have alot of injuries before lea... Almost all my limbs had been injured and have scars on it already. My left and right ankle had suffer sprain for more than 5 times that the ligaments are alittle damaged. I broke my wrist before and injured my back as well. I guess all this is the consequences of my childhood mischief. Nevertheless, I doubt I can even stand a chance in the Dojo(Judo Mats). I might be fast, but my accuracy sucks! Perhaps more training will be good before I join the next IVP, but.... This opportunity seems so tempting!! I really want to join the rest of my judo kas in the fight.. ARGH!!! Shall continue to negotiatate.

Will be going for an outing tomorrow with all the Business Climate members. I should happy that I have little problem working there and learning there. Hope it will be a happy day tomorrow..

Since I have the time I shall talk about something which I happen to encounter nowadays.

Just recently, i have been giving advices and view points on 3 kinds of love.
1st: A sweet and stable relationship.
2nd:A missing and full of surrounding obstacles relationship.
3rd: A being played and confused love.

The 1st is the story of a country with a prince and his new wife, the countess. They had never work or even know eachother well for months. Till one faithful day during one of the class in a institute, they both met and was task a project. Soon, the two of them got closer and closer and in the end they are together under the blessing of the people. From a third party view, they seem to be a loving party. A healthy relationship indeed.

As I continue to tour around the little world around me, I met the new era of cowherd and weaving maiden. Now they are the dark ninja and the beautiful princess. The beautiful princess had a secret crush on the dark ninja for quite a long time. And was unfortunately exposed by the king. The dark ninja was a great warrior and was all the time eyed by the king. The king however would like to give a 3 year challenge to the dark ninja before he will bless the princess and him together. Two loving couples, hopes to see eachother more but was blocked for some domestic reasons. A distant love to grow love sickness among two loving bird, for them to cherish the once in a blue moon meet up, so as to build a strong red line between them by the end of the love crime sentence.

Finishing my tour, I met a long time no see junior of mine. He got a crush with a girl. That girl seems to have interest with him. But that girl was so beautiful that all men's eyes will never escape. This junior have no knowledge on what a girl want, and the girl is a play girl. She had somehow become the puzzle of his heart. He wants to love, but she steps back for a pending. Seem so much like a game, where the patient ones wins the prize of this beautiful girl while the loser sits one side and weeps his way. Such love, dangerous??

Along the way, I gave advices, comments and comforting words... So much it is enough to open a love consultant agency. Someone drop by and ask, "wanna practise your promotion line?" I thought for a while," nah, I will rather have all this advices for my own use in the future". Hahaa...

Love can be a want or a need, if I have love now, most likely it is a want not a need. Love is happiness, and it is not something where I can force and make it up. To simlify, love is part of nature, so let the mother decide...

Thought of the day: guts... I need it.. I am out of guts!!

2007-03-19T23:12:00.000+08:00

19 March 2007, a ordinary day for most of us but not so for my brother who had just turn 18 this year. Will reveal his photo here...
That is who we call Tai Zi, meaning crown prince. Nickname is not there for fun, and yes this brother I have enjoys the good fate and hospitality of a real crown prince.

The past three day was a big bomb, but only explosions of just pure fun...And without my knowledge or even not the saint can explain, I got myself a daughter...

17th March 2007-
N~ZiRe have a BBQ at East Coast Park. And that day I enhanced my knowledge on setting up fire and also equiped myself with a skill and that is bbq satays. Drank beer on that day, Tiger beer is the beer and soon found myself so hot!!!!!! After that stay awake all the way till the next morning and we saw the sunrise.

Reach home on 18th March 2007, a boring day with me spending almost the whole day on the bed. I sleep that day in hope that it will be a brand new day, but soon i woke up on the same day -_-''' Went out at 6pm, head to buy present for our TaiZi and head to the surprise that our TaiZiFei had planned for him. Mission was sucessful and we attain surprise. A game to test how much our TaiZi know about us, it was a game that I personally find it fun and lengthy... Cut the details, just understand that he is surprise.According to some factual information, TaiZiFei stayed at TaiZi castle for the whole night and after that was forever and ever going to be mystery that no one wants to know. =D

The very next day, which is today; we visited Sakae Sushi... Eat our way till everyone had a real bloated stomach... Now the problem of having a celebrating streak is that, when the cash is not there, the mood will also not be there... We slack around in the arcade and in the end we are left with nothing to do. End the day with a basketball match, when my shoe decided to open its big mouth.
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I guess I shall stop here.. will be back to judo tomorrow. Because I got a warning sms from my yellow belt senior.
" coming down tml? Competition coming this sunday i hope u are aware of it. "

2007-03-11T15:23:00.000+08:00

11 March 2007, just woke up for a day at home. I should say finally at home...

2 days ago which was 09 March 2007, we see what I will call sweet romantic scene on pasir ris park. The details again I shall not say, its something those N~ZiRe members who are there to know. The confidential part, we shall wait for the male lead to leak. After the scene was a series of sensational talk.

Holiday holiday holiday, bored.... feel so distorted...

2007-03-04T16:22:00.000+08:00

04th March 2007, here I am pinning down another entry about the day before...

3rd March 2007, N~ZiRe had did something which no ordinary teenagers will care and do... Continued the culture from last year, we have a chinese new year visiting marathon yesterday. Though we were quite late from the designated time we are suppose to meet, the visit yesterday was still considered a mission accomplished. Pictures were taken and here are they....

First stop: Batman's hideout... My home

Second Stop: Shen's palace, Derrick's Home

Third Stop: JR nest, Jing Ren's Home

4th Stop: Xiao Fei Xiang safe house, Nigel's home

The last stop was at Tai Zi's castle, but no pictures were taken since everyone was busy. Some were busy playing blackjack, some were busy singing songs while some just chill around... Stay awake there the whole night till the very next day, which is today. we missed Ren Zhe's house, according to him, he is building bomb shelther there...haiz... but overall it was a fun day...

More pictures that had been taken yesterday....

Testing the camera, but somhow....

Shawn as usual..Photogenic

Sueh Li and Nigel

great guitarist

Jr and Shawn together with the peacock Shawn and me

See what happen when everyone snatch for a space

Honsonn, Ferlyn and me with Jolin Honsonn and me with Jolin

BlackJack!!! HUAT AR!!

Shawn and me with someone else shades

Don't know what comments you have but we
had been so like this for a long time... haha..

That should be all the pictures, however I still have some in my files... Now, the full stop will do his job here, to end this blog and also the end of Lunar New year celebration .

2007-03-01T23:23:00.000+08:00

1st March 2007, another month just passed...

Good news for a new month...Accomplished my semester 2 target G.P.A. Here is my results of my modules...
Basic Science----------------------------------- > 3.5 B+
Cognitive processess and problem solving ------ > 4.0 A
Computing and Mathematical method---------- > 3.5 B+
Contemporary Issues in Culture & Aesthetics---> 3.5 B+
Enterprise Skills II-----------------------------> 4.0 A

So cummulated G.P.A for my semester 2 will be 3.7 !!! Very glad to announce a slight inprovement of 1 grade from semester 1. I am super happy with my own results, I've made it after all!! Will be aiming to do higher for the next semester.

Judo!!! I am back to training, hope I will win a dignity for myself. If possible, hope I could master the skills in Judo and join the IVP. Come back in two piece will be good enough(the second piece is medal, then the first piece will be my body of course)...However, it will be a long way to that day and I know it will be super tedious. Just went to 3 trainings, I already had aches around the body. But, shall remember one of my fellow Judo Ka's quote, NO pain NO gain.... Currently I am trying to drill some words of my master into my mind. I had found what is needed from me to bring down my opponent. My basic throws, still needs to improve, then speed and accuracy will be primary allies; get close to the opponent and gets him/her on the ground...

hmm... shall stop here, got 2 meeting tomorrow.. haa~~

thoughts: Love can be constructive, but they can be destructive as well. It can be a booster, however it can also be a hindrance...How can one over come this spilt personality of love...

2007-02-23T01:02:00.000+08:00

23 February 2007, next day; another day of my holiday... Under the moonlight, here I am putting in the next entry...

A Song which I am recently crazy with...

Sum 41---> pieces
I tried to be perfect, but nothing was worth it
I don't believe it makes me real
I thought it'd be easy, but no one believes me
I meant all the things that I said.

If you believe it's in my soul
I'd say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I'm better off on my own.

This place is so empty
My thoughts are so tempting
I don't know how it got so bad
Sometimes it's so crazy
That nothing can save me,
But it's the only thing that I have.

If you believe it's in my soul
I'd say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I'm better off on my own.

On my own.

Ahh!

I tried to be perfect it just wasn't worth it
Nothing could ever be so wrong
It's hard to believe me
It never gets easy
I guess I knew that all along.

If you believe it's in my soul
I'd say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I'm better off on my own.
____________________________________________________________

That's all for today... haha.. Boring =_='''

2007-02-20T22:45:00.000+08:00

20 February 2007, third day of Chinese New Year... Nothing special, just went doors to doors to visit; considered normal rountine in such festival.

Once again, images of perfection appeared in my mind...
Followed by the feel of happiness, the sense of fulfillment...
Soon they dissappear, Awaking minds...
Which leaves a wandering soul behind...
Such dreams in my mind...
So near to feel it, yet so far to see it...

??? What am I writing??? Once a literature students, but yet so lousy in poems.......... (shi bai shi bai)

Now when I look around, things had changed and I am unaware. I feel so weak, feel so distorted and so hopeless. Others are better than me while I live in a pathetic state. All because I found the reason,that I still hear the voice of the devils louder than the angels...
Consciences speak and I must get rid of their voice and presence...Because their presence leaves things undone and milestones unfullfilled... Their voices make me a lousy guy, a useless man while others climb...
Devils are laziness, timid and loser... I will defeat them
Angels are discipline, confident and winner... I will welcome them
Damn.... Rome wasn't build in one day... All this shall take time...

Thoughts: So near to feel it, yet so far to see it....

2007-02-19T01:14:00.000+08:00

19 February 2007, just finish visiting the relatives...Had to do this since its Chinese New Year, paying 'respect'.

"Never judge a person by his/her look", I will pay my respect to the person who created this quote but I will also feel sad for that man since no one seems to follow his quote. I am commenting this in my own personal experience, so you might have a different view about that or is it only visible in my country. Perhaps it is, then I really have to applause loud and clear to Jack Neo's production.
Some how I experience this from the people around me who are decades ahead of me
Clever, smart= Straight A's in O'level..
Great Achievements= Still scoring A's in O'level.
One strand of highlighted hair= Bad boy, sure get beaten up one day
What happen to the elder child will happen to the younger son
Back home late= doing something bad outside
Being fasionable=Nor respecting the elderly.
Handsome face = Bright future, trys to be handsome? You will get yourself into trouble

I had grown up in a environment where no one will be there to motivates me, no one will be there to give me a pat on the shoulder,no one will be there to celebrates my achievement, the first priority is given to monetary benefits and lastly your face will deter your chances. When I look around the teenagers around me, the smallest achievement or dreams they had; they will be showered by tonnes and tonnes of good words while all I get are just mere sarcasm... Every where I go, there will definately have people directly challenging me and bound to their greatest cause to put me all the way down, and normally they come in big bulks and it gets bigger. I tried to be perfect to others, but nothing seems to be worth it when some other teenagers don't even have to try. Thus sometimes I will sigh and quote the chinese saying:" tong ren bu tong ming" which basically means, same features as the other man; but leads a different life. I grew stronger, learnt to self-motivates myself and gave myself a set of principles to follow despite such agony. But whenever I fall down and stands up, some one around me will pushes me down again and soon I found out that I am walking the path all alone with self-motivation, day dreams and devils around me. The strongest man will fall one day and I am just afraid that, that day will come for me and I can't stand up anymore. Anyway, such life... I am used to it, perhaps I am just lousy as they said...

I will definately have lots of life experience at the end of the journey, but I will also experience severe and fatal injuries along the way... Life's like that, all the least I can do is tolerate and be strong....

Thoughts:I lived in a cruel cold world, where there is almost no love, no sense and no care.... what can be done, is to love myself and flood myself with achievements and self fulfillment....just to remind my heart and soul, " I am not bad after all"....

2007-02-17T02:27:00.000+08:00

17 January 2007, the countdown is over and I am in a holiday~~!!!

Just came back from N~Zire meeting and again it is still a fun filled meeting. Jokes are there to make us laugh and tease are there to blush some people. Haaa~~~ The details shall not be here but in my head...

Just this morning, I am also just from my class W15L chalet.... Pretty fun~~~~ just bored at a little moment. I had little pictures with me, so guess I will be back with more pictures??

So fast yet so slow, chinese new year is coming~~!!

2007-02-08T00:25:00.000+08:00

08 February 2007, I finally self-declared a holiday for me in Republic Polytechnic. Actually the official holiday was 12th February 2007, which is next monday. But no one seems to care?? Because the next few problems after Understanding test will be deem as "Rubbish" to all RP students.

Went to school as usual on 07 February 2007, normal routine... What differentiate today is that, I make my way home after the UT before the lesson starts. In simple words, I skip my lesson. Don't have any motivation to continue my lessons from then, the only motivation is to skip my first lesson in Republic Polytechnic.

I headed home for the first time at the time when I am not suppose to. Take a nap, after which was a period of gaming till I decided to visit the Library. Wanted to find some books on marketing and human resources. Ironically, I lose the interest to read when I reach the Library... Ha~~ but I still took a browse on some of the book, which are pretty good I feel... Back home, I gamed again... Life had yet to be interesting for me.

Some how, I am quite glued to the chinese myth story of the cowherd and the maiden weaver. Yup, you bet it; I watched the 9 p.m. show on channel 8. Though it is an edited version of the myth, but some how I felt the feeling of the characters of in this myth... This myth is definately a very touching romance story, haha; how it takes a cold mean person like me to understand romance?? The myth is about a heavenly maiden weaver, the seventh daughter of the mother queen who has an excellent hands on weaving silk clothing and her duty in the heaven was to make clothes for the deities. One fine day, the maiden weaver togethered with the other fairies came down to earth to play and then that was when maiden weaver met cowherd. They both got married with 2 children. The heavenly king who happen to know that her daugher was married to a mortal man, ordered a immediated action on the couple. On the chase between cowherd and the heaven troops who took away the maiden, the mother queen casted a river( which can been seen on the dark night skies as the milky way) between them to seperate the couple forever. The cowherd and the maiden weaver loved eachother very deeply, and their love had touch both heaven and earth thus mother queen allowed them to met once a year on the 7th day of the 7th month of the lunar calender. So on that very day, known as the chinese valentines day, under the help of all magpies in the world who built a bridge on the milky way for this two loving couple to meet. Ha~~. I researched on the myth and discovered that actually the same myth was shared in the ancient Korea and Japan. Incredible huh? Different land, different culture seeing the same celestial phenomenum. Furthermore research, I also found out that the river that is being depicted in the story is actually tht milky way we would see on the night skies and the cowherd and the maiden on the skies are the "Astrial" and "Vega" both the brightest star on the Augest-September sky. p.s: psst... anyone interested to follow me spot them on the night sky this Augest or September??? Share with you the picture I found.....

On the left is the cowherd star"Astrial" and on the right is the Maiden Weaver Star"Vega". The blur white stuff in between them is the milky way.

End of the story of cowherd and maiden weaver story, a very touching romance story of the mythology china. Teaching lovers on the modern world what is the meaning of true love...

Just recently, or long time ago I had face this problem in my project team. Members are missing from meeting, client delaying reply and project on the halt. Frankly speaking, I don't understand the phenomenum behind these. Is it people getting sick of my face, getting sick of my project or what? How can I let people understand my theory behind the chessboard when my own teammates don't understand????haiz.....

thought of the day: 2-2=0 or 2-1 =1 ???

2007-02-02T08:13:00.000+08:00

2nd February 2007, celebrating the end of another month January and once agian wonder the speed of time. Early in the morning, as I sits down over here alone in my classroom... That's Right, ALONE! Some instincts tells me that everyone is not coming for class today, its already 0815 and not even a company here.

Went to Honsonn house to celebrates her sister, also part of N~zire... Again and again it is a fun filled day... Cut the details but it will still run in my mind... Alright.. the best happy birthday for Miss Wong Ferlyn A.K.A Genie A.K.A Sotong

A picture of the birthday girl....Miss Ferlyn

hmmm...guess I shall stop here. As I enter this blog last full stop, I am so happy to see that there is at least afew classmates coming in already. I am not alone after all.. =)

2007-01-31T20:56:00.000+08:00

31 January 2007, where the melancholy of the failure is no where to be seen; with a decision to be make.

A few days ago, someone offered me a position in the exco under the will of the new exco members. But, i don't quite like the idea because under the will of the members, i am not suppose to be in...Anyway, it feels as if it is a act of sympathy though it is explained not to be so. But I will still keep my words to this 'company' I am in that I will still commit as much as I do in the past and do as much as I do in the past. Once, I heard from a person that when a door is shut, the other door will be opened. For now, I have 2 doors opening for me... Which should I choose? A door is to the exco of the company that I am currently in, the other door that had been opened for me is to join the Coperation of all the companies(YA club). The person who told me that had offer to send me to there to excel myself. Right now, as I am writing this entry I am still thinking of the options. I enjoy the projects that I am holding in the company right now, but if I really go to the coperation, that might have to give up the commitment in the company. Analysing the benefits I will get, definately the coperation will give me a nicer and more sound transcript when I graduate. But I will be merely running internal projects, which is not the same as what I am running now as a project manager of a big external project. That will be a real challenge that I am looking for. Right now in my mind, I am thinking of trying my luck out at YA but not taking the exco role there so that I can run the projects in BC as well. In another words, I will join YA as a representative of BC. But that is something I have to think twice too, as can I cope with such work??? I use to think offers as conspiracy people who wishes to create, but I trust the source of the information thus I don't really suspect.

Dropping the previous topic, but again something regarding my projects. The "Mind Your Own Business" project is reaching the third stage of planning. Right now, the result of the project is still very vague as the deal has been delaying due to some disagreement among the two parties. Fortunately the negotiation is not hot in tension and that the client still show signs of keeness for the project. Moving on to the peak of the project, I want to make the project a well big and grand one. As I am preparing this project, there is another project which I am also the project manager will require my attention. That project will be something internal, its nothing big but it will affect the future manpower flow in BC for at least the next Academic Year. According to president Zann, the proposal had been accepted, thus I guess I can start working on it. Besides that, i will be sending in another proposal for a human resource team to be setted up in BC to utilize all the chemistry of members and to provide training of business to the members. That is one of the vision I have and hope to achieve in Business Climate.

Tomorrow will be genie's birthday and I am looking forward to celebrates her 15th birthday. This will be her first time celebrating her birthday with us. hmmm, but the sad thing is tomorrow she might encounter some one new, and also misses someone regular again. Haiz, Sometimes I wonder what is up that person's mind, (is attention, fame so that important?)

2007-01-28T03:20:00.000+08:00

28 January 2007, the melancholy of the failure have yet diminish in me while laughter and fun accompanied my mask for being happy.

Was just back from another fun-filled N~ZiRe Meeting. Went to Vivo City with someone new and also without someone regular. Walked around Vivo and played at the arcade, had our tea break and dinner there and I guess the experience today is somehow more fun than it is. After which we went to the balcony of Vivo and had some great view of Sentosa before we rush off for the last train and finally slacked at Macdonalds. That is the brief of my day today.

Just the day before, someone sms-ed me and asked, feeling better today? Not wanting to show any sign of sadness, just simply replied,"huh, since when I am not ok?haha'. I am seriously Ok, this is not the first time I met big failure, failure is just part of what I met in life. The sad thing is only that once I fail, I don't know when will the next chance to shine come ever again. To be frank, when the results were out, I am not really sad but just tired. Tired that I failed again, tired that I have to started all over again, tired that I had just lost something that day again. But however, it gave me a real tight slap and woke me up from my lost perfect dream. A tight slap that tells me, "you are yet to be the best" a tight slap that tells me " your devil had make you fail today". I don't blame any one so I don't wish any one to tell me that they are sorry, thanks for the sympathy anyway, I know I look pathetic right now. Till today, I still feel pathetic and I believe is the matter of time before I can search my oldself back. How long can I take anyway?? Such repetive blows on me are just decreasing my effiency and confidence while I struggle to get back on feet.

thoughts: A lost wandering soul, detacted from its confused wondering mind as it search for the rightful path to walk the world again.

2007-01-25T22:55:00.000+08:00

25 january 2007, yeah I am so back.....Just to write another sad sad dissapointed chapter in my life.

I guess the taoist priest who my mum invited home was too good to true. Too good to be true that the devil is never someone else but yourself. haa~~ I will be once again searching and destroy that devil in me. He had always been troubling my mind, that result in what I am now. Losing the things that I once possess, the confidence, the leadership , the charisma, the determination, the will.

Today,I face my first ever set back in 2007. Just right smack at the middle of my path to my perfection.I guess failure only means that I am just not good enough, no execuse no reason. Just that. For now, there is almost nothing I can do. Not going to shout out loud, not going to show displeasure to anyone but to myself and just continue to do myself. Perhaps that this failure had waken me that I can judge others, so do others can... Again there is nothing I could do but to search and destroy the devil in me and get back to my feet to improve myself yet again. Improvement and opportunities are my only friend to Life. Although Life is so going to be a struggle, I have the will to just walk it through. There is a chinese saying " ZHI CHUO NENG GAI", that saying should be said to me now. I know there are somethings I am wrong about myself. Shall stop dreaming about perfection, shall start making these dreams real... soon....

Passion for business management shall drive me to go on instead of giving up, I am just upset that I had a blow that I didn't got the thing I want.For now, I also need to do something my grades, just calculated my GPA and noted a drop of 0.2 GPA.. Though little, but great to me!! If there is a will there will be a way??? Yup, such a blow will not blow away my belief. I am still standing tall with my pride and dignity.....

thoughts: professionalism had told me not to put my emotions into what I should do.....

2007-01-22T21:55:00.000+08:00

22 January 2007, its a day full of displeasure..........

Just came back with a dental report, just found out the very reason for th on-off toothache I had. I had a wisdom tooth right at the left side of my gum, it is stucked inside the gum. For that, I have a bad news, I have to go for an operation. According to some experienced people I know, the operation will consist of injection to cause numbness and the slicing of gum to crush the stucked wisdom tooth. After which, they will stitch back the gum. I don't know if it is real or reliable, but if it is so, it will be a really BAD news. If it is not, then I will know how many enemies I have in this outside world.

What really bothers me is the aftermath of the operation, because definately I will not be able to speak for a few days. That is seriously a big problem as I have a project coming up which requires me to speak alot. BIG BIG PROBLEM......

So just tell me what have I done in my past life or whatever that make my fate so ill. Whenever a big thing is coming, I will definately get some unfortunate stuff. Life so unfair, life had made himself known as a struggle to me now. Struggle to excel, struggle to live..

Getting 'B's for most of module, just wondering what is happening. I tried to help my team with enthusiasium, I search the resources for them; I speak up for them when they are stuck during presentation, I will try to clear their doubts as much as possible. But all these seems to escape the eyes of my facilitators or they delibrately escape those stuff. But I have 'A' like comments nowaday but getting a B in the end. And the comment are kind of.... Like for instance my science faci, who wrote ,' I expect more from you' and give me a B, haiz; so how HARD should I try to an A, perhaps they are just trying to make me 'PERFECT'. Yeah, perfect.......

Sometimes, a good team really plays an important role to be in a project, or in my case, daily grade. Being in so many projects, had so many different kinds of people being my teammates I had found out the little needs to make a good team. A good team will possess the following
1. Good communication among each other
2. Enthusiasium
3. Understanding
4. No biasness
5. Good co-ordination
6. Helpful among eachother.
There is still a list of what makes a good team but I shall not name it all here. Although this is my topic to cover during the "mind your own business" workshop. Base on my experience, base on my knowledgea and what I had share here, it seems like I am a elite in such area. But my experience so far in so many projects, I had yet experience such a perfect team, even the team I have now for this project. Nevertheless, I met good team during some of my module presentation but sometimes, I just meet utter lousy team that spoils my day and spoils my mood. I guess I am having such teams nowadays. Perhaps no team is perfect as nothing is perfect, but it is up to a good leader to make the tide and I have achieved that level...

thought of the day: A stick is easily broken compared to a bundle of sticks.

2007-01-20T02:18:00.000+08:00

20 January 2006, just finished part of what I am suppose to done. Alittle drained here, so before I go to sleep I thought of putting in a blog entry.

Yesterday, I say this because it is already past 12 and I am suppose to blog about 19 January. Alright cut the craps, yesterday was nothing; just the as usual Class routine and my N~ZiRe Gathering. What makes the thing different yesterday in class is the topic which quite arouse my intrest. Re-presenting Reality which we are focusing on the reality of a media. I will cut the very details here also, because it is really a broad topic. But I will share one of my view which I had wrote in my Reflection Journal: " In every story there is always more than one side to it, but in all the media in this world only show one factual side of the story but not the other. In the presence of human, there will always be a chance of conspiracy" Thanks to Shawn who gave me my views when I met him, I was able to give the last sentence to complete my RJ. Thanks man Bro. And that was my academic day.

Met up with N~ZiRe as usual Friday. And we have 2 hot topics today. One was to whether we want to include the 13th member of this club. Some of the agreement was because that particular person is able to click with us very well, ok lets make it too well. Thus quite a number of vote to allow that person in. I shall keep the name of that person confidential till any further progression. The next BIG BIG topic is once agian regarding JR. That guy is seriously hiding some heart desire issues from us. HaHa~~, as the details are suppose to be confidential so I will not put in the grandmother story here. But just a emphasize a KEYWORD which is almost always emphasize in our club, to JR(if he is ever here). That Magical keyword is 'TRANSPARENCY"(disclaimer: The "transparency" here is not relating to the transparent paper we use for OHP).

That was all for yesterday. Just sent an email to all my team(Project:MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS) regarding the submission of the booklet for their presentation during the workshop since I receieve none. One of my teammate is actually sick so as a project manager,I thought it would be fair to postpone the deadline of submission from today to tuesday, so that they will have more time to plan and co-ordinate theyselves at the same time not compromising the quality of the work. As we uphold the objective of this workshop for us is that we will give our best to the participants of this workshop, I also does not want my teammates to feel stress and fall ill for this workshop. A happy man makes a good worker, thats my belief and I believe that is what I should do. As the client had replied and shown great interest in our project, we have to move on and thus I had set a deadline. But however I had foresee this delay thus I gave my team and myself 2 weeks of buffer time to co-ordinate and plan this workshop but I trust my teammates to be responsible enough to move along. hmm...

Guess that is very very all, got to get moving. Drafting the letter to my client soon and catch a good night/morning sleep.

Thought of the day:
Rome wasn't built in one day, so if we have the will to move on, there will be a way for us to be successful one day.

In the very presence of human, there is a chance of conspiracy; what is morally right or wrong is solely depending on individual logical reasoning.

2007-01-17T10:26:00.000+08:00

17 January 2007, Wednesday; sitting right here in my small cozy classroom about to prepare my third meeting presentation. Alittle bored by the topic today, so decided to drop an entry.

I am suppose to blog that saturday, but due to some reason I didn't came here. And Ya, Saturday was a day of events for me. First was the CCA fair back in JYSS, as a FDI , I am very proud of what the contingent had done during the CCA fair. (minus-ing all the mistakes in their drills). Also get to perform some public speaking due to some reason again... I will drop the very details of this event. Here are 2 pictures that I took with my fellow officer/instructors in JYSS.

From Left: Me, Fairoz, KevinBambang,Shiyong, Bambang

Smilez instructors

That was CCA fair in JYSS, still happy being an NCO there and not intending to go OTC. Sorry all officers but my belief is " leadership does not neccessary be symbolised by ranks" that is my belief but of course there are still some officers who i see have ranks and leadership, and that is really something remarkable.

After the CCA, rush back home to bathe and out I go agian. This time I went to NAFA, watched Ferlyn's performance. Wow... Ferlyn... she can dance and sing very well, what more can we expect from a 14 year old? bright future she has. The concert was pretty entertaining, except for some singers who have voice that are so beautiful that they put my buddy, Nigel into sleep. =p

N~Zire Visits to NAFA

Guess I got to go prepare the stupid presentation which I am growing to hate it...

2007-01-08T22:29:00.000+08:00

08 Januaray 2007, second week of 2007 which means there is sort of like 3 more weeks to the next holiday. Ha~~ Why am I so looking forward it, the school just started for goodness sake~~!!

Finally I got back my laptop from Acer service center, so much that I won't suffer Laptop-Sick. I mean I will not miss Laptop so sickly that I fall asleep in class and attitude in class. Well, you guess it this Acer Travelmate 4150 had really became my travelmate, so much like my wife , so much like my house of thoughts , so much my wisdom so much my travelmate. Almost everywhere I went to, I am with this laptop. So I can't live without it.

I had a very nice lesson today on cognitive processes, the topic of the day is about moral... What is right and what is wrong. I shared my piece of mind through out the forum on what is right and what is wrong for some issues that are being brought up. This ought to be one of the best cognitive lesson that I had ever had.

I will be super super super super super duper duper duper duper duper duper duper busy for the few days.

Tomorrow: Have Business Forum to attend and after that had to rush down in cab to Junyuan Secondary to continue the contingent training for this coming saturday CCA Fair. I am the Overall Commanding Commander.

Wednesday: Not much, but got to go get my hair rid to a shorter length so that I won't be suan or caught for inappropriate grooming this coming saturday. The issue about FDI(Footdrill Intsructor) badge will be once pressured on me. Though I am a bronze badger for FDI but still they expect the discipline

Thursday: Got to skip Judo that day, will be meeting up with my workshop team regarding the Mind your own business. As the chances of clinching of the business with ESSS seems to be alittle bit far away, I am still clinching it with my team till the end.

Friday: General meeting for BC, going to end school late once again

Saturday: CCA Fair over at Junyuan.

While most of time are spend in RP and also travelling time. haiz../

2007-01-04T11:59:00.000+08:00

4th January 2007, another day in school without a proper laptop infront of me. I really got to say that days are hard for me without a laptop....

Had a sleepy Enterprise lesson for me today. Particially due to the absence of my laptop, but it was quite a fulfilling lesson despite the fact that I am always dozing off. I manage to help my team put together an almost perfect presentation. I did a perfect finale for my team, which I am happy because I sent everyone impressed. That was the next perfect thing I had done for 2007, lets hope it will be a good year ahead.

Finally, I will get back my laptop tomorrow. According to the Acer engineer who return a call to me after I call them in Acer, my laptop was actually due next monday but I force them to get it done as soon as possibe by Friday. They told me that the fault can only let them get it done by saturday, but I was like alittle not happy with that, so I ask them to get it done as soon as possible under my will because I urgently needs it. I guess they still have conscience, they immediately get it fixed after I called them. HAHA.. so shiok..

Yeah! Will be wearing formal next tuesday for the youth entreprenuer forum. I am just a mere questioning team during the event. I was suppose to be the presenter, representing my IG, but due to the tight schdule i have and also that I have 2 major BC project in my hands, thus then I reject this very good chance to present infront of ministers.. HAIz...Lets hope there will be a second chance

thought of the day: No matter how bad it is, I am going to withstand it...

2007-01-01T15:15:00.000+08:00

1st January 2007, Monday. Here is the first blog in neverending89.blogspot.com for the year 2007. I just woke up from my sleep, was very tired since I get home very early in the morning. Ha~~

My very last moment of 2006 was with my forever and ever clan, N~ZiRe over at Downtown East. Sorry, there is no pictures but the memories are up in my head, flowing through my river of thoughts. We met at 2000 hours at Pasir Ris control station, had our dinner and we headed to Pasir Ris Park to have some chatting going on. I specially want to comment about the carrot cake I had yesterday, it is so not nice. Ferlyn's carrot cake was very blend, mine was salty only Don's is the perfect one. lolz.... forget it... So we went to Pasir Ris Park before the countdown and we were chatting about "ghost", what a nice topic before a new year; that topic seems so suitable for the environment there since it was so dark there. 2250 hours, we headed to downtown east to get into the countdown area, we were forbidden to go as we have Dangerous item on us, what? We have Foams with us, which was forbidded by law after the incidents last year when some people from... molested or pickpocketed during the event. Nevermind,we used up all the sprays first before we enter the place.

Its real HOT there, i mean fun there. Though its alittle bit noisy for some of us, but it seems that the ambience there is pretty high. Screaming and shouting and dancing, what more can you desribe happy will be there. When the countdown starts, we all gathered together shoulders to shoulders and count down to the new year. Fireworks, lightings and the music Au-lang-sang marks the new year for everyone in downtown east, everybody screams and dance to the music, it feels as though all the bad things are no longer in this world and we are in a new year!
N~ZiRe dance around for a moment when we decided to head to the beach again and have some emo talks.... After which, due to some emergency, we all headed home and that resemble the end of our countdown 2007 event..

As part of a new year......

my review for 2006
2006 is a year full of unfortunated events for me.
The biggest regret I had for that year is that I let myself work too hard and aimlessly that I neglected things around me. Along the way, I lost alots of things, my vast social circle, my own dignity and self confidence. I also regret to chiong too much that I had neglected myself too, making myself alittle too tired.

The only thing I am not regret for the year 2006 is, I am still single =p...

my resolution for 2007
2007 will be a brand new year for me.....
I will live up to this motto from here then
"if there is a will, there will be a way"
I will live happily for this year at the same time maintain my good results
I will not care about the social circle that I had lose, for I have a dream to fulfill.

my new email address: will2ways_seah@hotmail.com
Anyway, I changed my contacting email address, hope this will really mark a change. My new e-mail will be will2ways_seah@hotmail.com , feel free to add me for there are some contacts that I might had missed out. Currently I am waiting for all the contacts to accept my new e-mail before will2ways_seah@hotmail.com will be fully in operational. "chey" majiam like enterprise... Ha~~ just add me in.. thank you.
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That is all for the first blog entry in 2007, seriously hope that this year will be a year for me and those around me. I don't wish for any bad encounter this year anymore.

Thoughts of the day: If there is a will, there will be a way.

2006-12-30T00:10:00.001+08:00

30 December 2006, just one day left and 2006 is over.

Woke up early in the morning 9 am to make call to acer regarding my laptop. He told me to bring my laptop down to the servic center over in Jurong. Initially I was thinking it will be a real rush to there. Furthermore, I am not sure of where is the service center. Jurong, yes it is in Jurong, but which part of Jurong? But come to think about the consequences if I don't bring it down to service today, I will have to wait for another 3 days with a faulty laptop to be fixed and I won't be free then. No choice, I made my way down to Jurong. My parents forbid me taking taxi, for they think it is a HUGE expense, so I have to rush down by MRT and I know I have not enough time for it but I just blindly rush my way down to Jurong; and that was 10a.m. 2 hours before the service center is closed. Half way through the journey, my dad called me and ask me to take a taxi down, so I did, I took a taxi from Bedok to Jurong and I reach there at 1030. Goodness sake, just when I most need a taxi, none was there for me. Finally one came, and he told me that he was unsur of where Acer building is. I told him it was somewhere around Jurng IMM, so he brought me there. The fee was $15.00 exactly. Another big problem just come, I came to notice, it is not just around IMM but one street down IMM then it is Acer building. Fortunately, my uncle who stayed in Jurong brought me to the Acer building.

When I met the service personel, it was already 1130 and another thing just make me completely puzzled. I told the service personel that I encounter a long beep sound when I switch on my laptop and I couldn't even start the window. He look at me, he pressed the power switch. Ironically my laptop obediently switch on without any fault. =_=''' He advised me to leave my laptop with them for a further check on what is the problem. I agreed, anyway I have no choice, if I don't get it settled by today I will have no laptops with me for one week of the school term. After which I left the building, that was just nice 12 noon and the service center is closed.

When I reach home, I got a continued nagging and repremand from my parent. First was about my laptop, they blame me for the fault of my laptop. Come on, do I look as if I delibrately fault my laptop and find this nonsense for myself? The laptop is down and I have much more problems to face upon that, give me a break! Second was about the taxi, I was scolded for taking taxi from Bedok which is much more expensive than for me to take the taxi from Bugis or Clementi instead. OMG, where is the sense of time urgency? If I continue to take the MRT to clementi or Bugis, I will waste 30mins of the trip, plus the time for me to search for a taxi in bugis or clementi, if I ever reach there for what I take a taxi I am nearing Jurong already.It will be a real wastage if I do that, not just that I will not be able to make it on time before the service center is down. Then the nagging and reprimands continues and continues, obitting on one issue; MONEY. There is a saying in chinese, "qian bu shi wan neng de" which means money isn't everything; for that I will never find it within my family. Money somehow had become the first priority for my parent.

I can't even show any sign of displeasure when I come to this money issue in my family. I can't blame my father because he forbid me from taking taxi, limiting my pocket money and how much I spent each month and stuff like this, since he belongs to a low income profession. Neither can I blame my aunt who stayed here and live dependant on my father, and neither can I blame my grandmother for giving pressure my father about money. They love money so much, but they handle in such a way that life is so difficult but yet simple for them and for me.Till now, I am still standing firm on the claim that I made during the my O'level english oral where the topic is " do thing money is an angelic or a devilish thing", I chose devilish and now you see what I mean after this entry.Back to topic, I can't blame them but to only blame myself for having a different mind set about handling my own money and my spending habits.

My philosophy and logic about spending is very simple. I spend my money when I need to and want to if there is enough. I put principles and happiness infront of this god damn thing money and that is the main difference between my parents and myself.

My mother wants me to study to get a high qualification and get a good job. When I found a new target when I enter polytechnic and that was to get into university and get my degree before I come out to work, I told my mum about my future plan. She was supportive at first but soon got very angry with me when I told her about the school fees. Just because the school fees is in 5 degees with a comma in between the second and the third degee and for goodness sake they don't even allow me to apply loan if I want to further study.They told me to work hard in NS and get a job in army and let them pay my school fees. For what the army wants a person who is going to study business? Are they so going to make me market M16 rifles and M203 grenade launchers after I further studies about business.. Argh.. I want to excel in my life, I want to get a high qualification as high as possible; but it seems to me the biggest barrier is money and my own parents....

I think that is enough of moaning and groaning, it protrait a even childish and stubborn side of me. Right now, I have to solve the problem of not having a laptop for school, how am I going to do my research for the workshop materials, how am I going to finish my daily assignment and how am i going to trace back all my work in the laptop. My new year had been spoiled and I does not want spoil it furthermore. I am so unable to join my buddies for a K-Box session tomorrow since my parent will be raging at me agian if I do so but I am going to forget everything and enjoy my countdown with them tomorrow. And I swear, I will find a way to condemn my bull like temper and I swear I will not be lazy anymore. Enough of troubles this year....

2006-12-30T00:10:00.000+08:00

30 December 2006 Friday, just back from the usual outing of N~Zire. Its pretty a long time since I last blog, raftly 6 days? Actually, there is quite alot to blog for the past 6 days. My mind had always been with this blog, thinking of what to put up here.

Christmas
Once in a year, we celebrate the birth of jesus during the christmas day. I am not a christian, but this day 25 december had become a festival celebrated by almost everyone in this world regardless of race or religion. I am not extempted from this either.

24 december 2006, went to count down with Jing Ren, Nigel, Nicklaus and Shawn. Nothing much, it seems like some of us are not in the right mood to celebrate christmas. Had a few pool and foosball action over at e-zone before we move our butts to Orchard road. Along the way, we were chatting while some part of the journey with a complete silent and Shawn reading his "the imperial spy". The only joke is when we were discussing about Shawn's sudden intrest in reading. Ha~~ sorry brother, it is really something worth to find out. Its a real hard time trying to squeeze through the crowd over at Orchard Road, and my mood was pretty spoilt by then. We spent our next few hours before the clock struck 12, walking around Orchard Road, spraying frost and strings. It was quite an enjoyment, running around spraying and shout"merry christmas". We didn't heard the count down, cause we can't hear it; thus as the crowd roar... we just dim its already christmas and head to simei to meet Honsonn. We prepared a present for Honsonn that night, at the very moment when he stepped infront of us, we spray the last can of frost at him. Haha~~, he is very "on" as in he didn't really come chasing us around like a bull. After which, all of us stayed at a nearby coffeeshop and moan.. WHY moan?? because it is a boring christmas when we are all bachelors.....

The very next day, Christmas!!! It was Shawn's Birthday, and you guess it he is the christmas boy in our group.We decided to catch a movie, "curse of the golden flower"; before we all head to his house to celebrate his birthday. The movie was quite nice, nice effects nice story and whatever nice things you name. And I am alittle puzzled with N~ZiRe recent new hobby, foosball... We just keep playing it. Celebrated Shawn birthday at his warmth home and had a fantastic dinner there. Whole lot of us went down to the playground at the late, so as to play flour. But our good buddy Jing Ren ran away because we all want to make him all white that night. Had a search party to search him down, we were unable to so because we had little information about his whereabout. We called him to have some restriction of area if he wants to play hide and seek. The rule is simple, no second floor, just the ground level... In the end, he hid in shawn house -_-'''. Nevermind.. its ok.. we are fine with it. Then right after that, it was home sweet home.

26 December 2006, it was post christmas and also 2nd anniversary of the big disaster Tsunami on the south east asia. I was still a secondary 3 boy at then. But life continues despite the tragedy 2 years ago, N~ZiRe went to bowling for that particular day. My mood was still as shacked as it is for the past 2 days of christmas celebration. My bowling skills are as usual, not constant, my first game sucks to the core, the second was very good, strike and spare like no one business and the last one it was back to sucks again. But I am not particularly affected by that, anyway my dream is not be a bowler. I was suppose to join my class for a BBQ night, but I got the time wrong; my fault or the person who told me the time 's fault??? Fine whatever, in the end I did not join my classmates and head home and bury myself down for an emo. night.

And that is what I had for christmas, fun surrounds me but i just can't grasped them. Just wonder what is happening to me for the past three days.

After christmas
27-28 december 2006 I did almost nothing but staying at home. Playing games and also trying to boost my mood again. And 2 days just pass in a blink of an eye.

A series of super unfortunate events
Somehow I believe I can start to contact hollywood regarding a new movie to be screen dipicting me as the male lead. And the movie can rightfully be tittled as "A series of super unfortunate events"

I don't know what is nailed in my fate, and I always believe I could change it if it is bad cause my actions means everything. I pray to my god almost daily when I left my house for some work. I lead almost a normal life, almost normal but it became extrodinary when I face a series of real suay events this year. Let be share with you from the start of year 2006, as much as I could remember.

January: Retreive O'level results with a shocking result for English, D7. An obvious slide in result, sorry make it TOO OBVIOUS! Prelim Enlish B4, O'level English D7. WTF....

February: Entered Republic Polytechnic unexpectedly. Others who choose RP as first choice got into my favourite poly at that time TP. I put RP behind, I GOT IT! anyway this prove nothing as life is still stable for me in RP.

March: I don't remember any "suay" events here

April: First day of school, miss 3 buses and was almost late. Squeeze with some idiots who refuse to move to the rear of the bus. That is so vivid in my mind.

May: Met some idiots from my SIT camp who are so childish and attempted to bully me. A fold in my pants means I am horny.. Super CHILDISH and for goodness sake the person who started it was a year 2 lady. What a slut and those who followed after that was even lamer! they are dragon in groups, but cowards alone.come on man, a little message to those guys, HEY GROW UP!

June: After an almost one whole year of check up due to some doctors who suspect I have back proble, they told me it was not my back but the problem with my legs. The "good" doctor scare me by saying "its very obvious that your legs are not in equal length which might make you not able to jump or even run properly, this is very serious that I might write an letter to execuse you for army." my immediate reply was " MR DOCTOR, I got 4 points for my standing board jump, I was once a high jumper in my primary school and also an athelte when I was primary 6. If that is not enough, I am telling you my Fitness test is always Gold or Sliver." He was pissed obviously but ordered me to take an x-ray of almost MY WHOLE BODY. The x-ray cost my parents $200, and the next checkup when another doctor screened me told me, "wah, why are you screening so many x-rays. There is not much problem with your legs, its just 2.5 cm shorter, and it is not really a matter and you can still go to the army if you love it. " WTF, doctors nowadays!!!! For 6 months I felt so demoralised that I am not able to serve my NS in the combat specialist side.

August: Was doing rolling break falls during my judo training. Suddenly I lost balance for no reason and sprain all my toes on my right leg. HAPPY! =(
And not to forget, Knocked on a bamboo stick while listening to MP3. WTF

September-Buffering sounds was heard from my laptop, before I could even thought of anything, the acer engineers reformated my com and it is for goodness sake one day before school reopen. First day of the new semester, already I am busy with 2 things. Third meeting presentation and also to monitor what the person over the IT helpdesk is doing to my laptop...

October:Got Rashes after using a suntent lotion which I had used for almost 2 times before without anything. But just the last use cause this stupid rashes. In the end, I missed alot of Judo lessons

November: nothing much....

December:
I am going to make this long!!! because It just happen recently.
A few months ago, my laptop was reformated one day before school starts. A few months later, I received an early present for new year and late present for christmas. MY LAPTOP JUST CRASH!!!! I am so fucking angry right now as I put in this entry in the middle of the night. You might think that it is common for laptop to crash, but this time my laptop really make the timing right. Just when I am about to do my project after knowing that my seniors are already begining not happy with my project. AND MY PROPOSAL is in there. So, if the lappy really crash, I am doom for sure. Tomorrrow, Acer will be closed by 1, so I have to make a call to them early in the morning. Worse, its saturday tomorrow, and they will only make up for me the next working day. which means next wednesday since tuesday and monday are public holiday. TO make things even suay and worse, I have a Understanding test next wednesday. Without my laptop, IT IS REALLY DAI JI DUA DIAO!!Thanks to the UT rule stating students are to be responsible to maintain his/her laptop before a UT. Students without a laptop during the UT will be doing the UT on a paper with no other reference. These means that I die got to study fully for the next UT....

WAH~~~~ super angry, feel like killing and slaughter anything that comes in my way. I HAD NEVER BEEN SO SUAY!!!

Somehow I am stressed...
ya, some how i am stressed with something which I am not sure of. For this whole entire month, I am so tired of everything that is around me and somehow struggling to survive. It seems like my confidence level is dropping, real real fast and I am coping with it. Have sleepless night almost every night. haiz.. I wonder what happen to me.. Fortunately this is diminishing after christmas, hope it continues and never come back.
But anyway, thanks Xue Ning my senior in BUsiness Climate handling the workshop team with me for encouraging me, I won't let the whole thing down.....

Endless rain and earthquake in Taiwan
Climate changing in this sick sick earth. Human activities caused all this shit I suppose. Since the day of N~ZiRe Chalet till yesterday, it had been showering around the island. It stopped for sometimes but came back soon. This caused some areas in Singapore to be flooded and also some land slides on slopes. It also make life so difficult for some of us. Then came the earth quake 3 days back in southern taiwan which damaged the under water cables and seriously slowed down the connection speed of internet around Asia. WTF is wrong with this world...... Are we so in the dying generation??
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Alright, these blog is getting too long, got to stop right here. I will be back if I have something to tell this world about my life. For now, I will relax as I do my project without my lappy and enjoy my next few days of holiday.

THought of the day: If there is a will, there is a way

2006-12-24T01:29:00.000+08:00

24th December 2006, reaching the very end of 2006. Is it too soon??

Just that thursday, I came back from N~ZiRe Chalet 2006. It was pretty fun except the days when it is normally rainy. The Chalet is over, the bond of this big family thus also strengthened in a way, as we all stayed under one roof for 4 days 3 night. The fun there is where beyond words can describe, so then I won't be writing a novel here; Take a look at the pictures I took in the chalet, mostly the first day, the next few days was alittle too busy to take out my camera.

The front of our Chalet, anyone it is just one of the units

Shawn teaching me how to pluck a guitar as we wait for the rest to reach there

Our unit

Three of us taking photo before they reach the chalet.

Haha~~

Awaiting to play the game prepared by our two new members

This is something they did for the game, " the voting game"

oh, these are the two new member , from left " Ferlyn and Nicklaus"

The three most voted in the game. haha.. heng I not inside.

Didn't get voted as the most pervert or whatever, but the next game, I GOT THIS~~!

N~zire at RSAF Chalet Changi

A personal message for everone in N~ZiRe:
To...
Honsonn: Hey brother, thanks for making this chalet possible, you are a great leader indeed, no doubt. Nevertheless you are a very great brother I had too, thanks for all the chit chat moments and stuff like that.

Jing Ren: Haha~~ sorry brother for tricking you and make you drunk during the BBQ night. Anyway, its a very fun chalet with you around, and I have to make this loud and clear!

Shawn: Yo man, thanks for teaching me how to play the Qing Tian and Qi Li Xiang, though I had not really master it but I will still thank you from the deepest of my heart. Anyway, its fun to have you around in the chalet and also as my brother.

Nigel: How do you enjoy the royal rumble my brother? Haha~~ thanks for the BBQ food and all the breakfast and dinners you had prepared for us. really appreciate everything you had done for the chalet.

Derrick: YO brother, you had changed, this year you are more on and more steady. KEEP IT UP~~ brothers forever

Yi Qi: yeah shi mu, I do feels great to have you at the chalet. Thanks for making me your wife during the disco night.. wah.. argh.. nevermind.. haha. take care, hope to see you more...

Sueh Li: yo yo renes, you clubbed do yo?? haha~~ you dance real well, hope one day we all can go to club togethe, provided we got the cash..HAHA.. sorry pratical me. Anyway, you take care and if there is any problem, do come and find us, cause you are our sister and we are your brothers and sisters, your problem will be lawfully our problem ;)

Ferlyn: hey potential star, my N~Zire Sister. Thanks for the games you and nicklaus had prepared for us, it was fun. And don't take it by heart when i immitate you, HAHA~~ " AIYORR" take care....

Nicklaus: hey, Nigel's brother. You are more than meets the eye to me, initially thought you are someone who takes a long time to click with us, but who knows you are so hyper active in the chalet. Welcome Nicklaus to N~ZiRe, your presence will ensure the forever happiness in N~ZiRe. And last but not least, thanks for the game you and Ferlyn had prepared for us, its was real fun.

Overall, I feel great at the chalet

That was the fun holiday i had. Back from chalet, I am already dead meat. Friday, all the brothers went out again to have dinner and torn at shawn house to watch movie. Thanks to Shawn, some people thought we are gays. The scene goes like this....( not exact, base on memory)

We entered the lift and another guy came it
Shao Cheng: Which floor??
The guy press himself and smile to us.
Honsonn: hey later cannot sleep lea, sleep liao we how?
Shawn: Nevermind la, you all can sleep in my room at 3am ma.
Then that stupid guy turn around, turn back and laugh to himself..

What the hell, a few guys together means gay ar? we are all man, more man than you think we are.. lolz...

Anyway, they were all talking about their love life, we are all a bunch of poor bachelor, hoping to find a new girlfriend. Haiz.. actually i am against the odd, and I don't know why..

I guess I got to stop here, its getting late. .will be back soon.